guess who's back.
back again.

ah yes, my cyst is back. i suppose, tell a friend!! sorry, i guess i have eminem stuck in my head. :)

my wonderful and lovely cyst has made a 5th visit during my pregnancy which was quite a bit more than i was hoping for!! the odd part is that it's not a pregnancy related thing, but usually happens to men around the 18-24 age. i suppose that once you have it, since it's likely to come back so often, it's not like i should complain about how many times it's returned since i haven't had the major surgery yet.

i was in quite a bit of discomfort on friday evening while at a dinner party, and found it once james and i returned home. i was really upset at the time, crying and saying, "i don't have time for this now!!" ahahahahhahaha, oh pregnancy hormones, how you make me giggle (later on)!! i was dealing with finishing loan docs, organizing all of patrick's wonderful presents from friends, trying to sort our painters for our new condo, and figuring out when we could actually move in. i didn't want anymore on my plate!! unless it was a cupcakes, but that's a different story...

the whole weekend felt wasted since i couldn't walk or sit for very long. you really have to be laying on your side to not experience total pain. it's also very difficult to be 8 months pregnant and experiencing this. you already feel uncomfortable because no position you sit or lay in feels good. you feel pressure from this child inside of you who has dropped. you can't breathe even though said child has dropped. you can't eat a whole lot at once sitting since your tummy is all squished up inside of you. all of a sudden, these pregnancy symptoms/pain/discomfort feel like NOTHING compared to the ache at the bottom of my spine.

last night was by far the worst day i've had pain wise. ever. in my life. i've had other surgeries where they've given me vicodin and morphine for pain management. if you are late on those doses, you really start to feel it, but last night was 10 times worse, and i could only take 2 tylenol every 6 hours. i will spare you the details of what happened, but the pain is away!! i went to the doc today to possibly have a quick surgery, but thank jesus that it was not required.

my hopes and prayers for this situation are that it doesn't return, and i'm able to go these next few weeks without pain, or it flaring up again. it seems to be setting in faster and more hardcore with each visit. the good news is that once patrick is born, i will be able to be put under and have the more major surgery to totally remove it. i am looking forward to that day, and thank everyone for their warm emails, and for keeping me in your prayers!! xoxoxo!!

happy note!!

i walked over to our local starbucks this afternoon to grab my pregnancy delight, aka a decaf nonfat iced latte. mmmmmm, heaven in a little cup!! as i walked in, there was an older lady in all white who gave me a huge smile. i smiled back and went to the counter to order my drink. after i was done, she gave me the "come over here" hand signal, so i walked over to her table.

she said to me, "i just have to let you know that you're the most beautiful pregnant woman i've ever seen, and i'm an ob. i wish that all my girls looked like you do, and you just keep it up!!"

i told her thanks, and tried to hold back happy tears when she kept going. she said, "your baby must be so happy thanks to you, and i can just see the most amazing glow around you. i wish you the best, and hope your husband takes good care of you!!"

"yes, yes he does, this is probably why i'm so happy," i replied.

hehehehehhehe!!

what a random happy event that totally made my day!! here i was thinking that a little cup of iced coffee would please the pants offa me this afternoon, and this woman i've never met before who was on her break from work makes my week. i don't care if she says this to everyone...bless her heart if she does...but it really meant a lot to me as a woman, and absolutely as a pregnant woman!! in an old shirt and sweats!! :)

feeling better!!

after the 4th return of a cyst to my lower back, i finally had it partially removed a week ago. my pregnancy has been incredibly wonderful so far, minus the painful cyst which is not pregnancy related. the location is just horrible, barring me from sitting or exercising at all. i think it's just overall frustrating to be on your side and not moving around when all i want to do is play and feel healthy!!

luckily i could get it partially removed with the help of a surgeon and some local anesthesia. the local was a bit painful to receive, and it took about a week before all of the healing/bruising/pain was gone.

i am so blessed to have medical services nearby, and i'm feeling back to normal. well, as normal as a pregnant woman can be!!

back to life as i know it, which now means getting things ready for a condo we've just purchased here in mountain view!! i can't wait for the contingencies/inspection to pass so i can start picking out colors for paint/carpet/flooring, and organize the little one's room before his arrival!! it MAY all just happen in time!! :)

i've been lagging lately in my posts here. i'm sometimes not sure i always want to blog about everything i do. should i do important things? fun things? i swear, indecision is a symptom of pregnancy that nobody talks about.

at any rate, i'll start with my birthday celebration!! james and i decided to head to disneyland since it's free on your birthday and since my special day fell on a sunday this year. it was such a perfect place to be while pregnant, too. of course i skipped a few rides they suggest pregnant ladies do not ride, but did all the fun ones!! i just had a blast going at my own speed, and taking breaks when i needed to. it was also so much fun to again go to the blue bayou for lunch. it's a great way to break up the day, relax, and enjoy the a/c for an hour or two!!

i fell in love with the fireworks show at the end of the day, but i was pooped at that point. our hotel was a little over a mile away, and we had walked to disneyland to avoid parking there. i had heard that if you take a little nap in the middle of the day while preggers, you can really enjoy the whole day since you can of course go back anytime during that day. james and i walked to the park in the morning, walked back for a nap, walked back in to enjoy some more fun, and walked back when we were finished. that alone was about 4.5 miles of walking while about 5 months pregnant...not counting all the walking we did in the park. needless to say, i was pooped that night!! but all in all, it was totally worth it, and i suggest it to all pregnant ladies!! like i said before, just do things at your own pace, and you'll have a blast!! it doesn't hurt that james and i act like 5 year olds once we're in the park!!

my life in pictures

well, not really. just a fun mosaic about me!!

QUESTIONS:
1. What is your name?
2. What is your favorite food?
3. What is your hometown?
4. What is your favorite color?
5. What is your favorite movie?
6. What is your favorite drink?
7. What is your dream vacation?
8. What is your favorite dessert?
9. What is one word to describe yourself?
10. How are you feeling right now?
11. What do you love most in the world?
12. What do you want to be when you grow up?



here were my silly answers:
1. jeannette
2. flautas
3. fremont, ca
4. pink sparkles (tee hee!)
5. duh
6. note the purple straw. this is not from starbucks. ice blended yumminess from the coffee bean.
7. paris
8. strawberries and raspberries smothering a small scoop of vanilla. this was as close as i could get.
9. giggles !!
10. tired. i was going to say pregnant...but more tired right now.
11. love love love <3
12. my answer has always been: a mommy

DIRECTIONS:
- Go to Google image search.
- Type in your answer to each question.
- Choose a picture
- Use this website ( http://bighugelabs.com/flickr/mosaic.php ) to make your collage.
- Save the image for use in this note.

totally. spoiled. rotten.

i met up with my mommy yesterday to get a bit of early birthday celebrating in, and man we know how to have fun!! please keep in mind that fun while pregnant means something a bit different to all!!

we started off by seeing monsters vs. aliens. my mommy picked it out and i went along thinking it would be another cute kid movie. also, it was in 3-d which didn't excite me much. growing up, i couldn't understand how kids were viewing things in 3-d with those annoying red and blue glasses. my eyes are kinda jacked up, so every time i tried to peer into the glasses, i either saw a totally blue or totally red screen and missed out on all the OOOOHHH and AHHHHH moments. the glasses for this movie are clear which makes for a very excited netties!! i was able to view my first movie in 3-d and felt like a kid again. or as always. :)

after that, we headed over to palo alto to do some major shopping. nordy's likes to reward good shoppers with gift certificates, so naturally, that's where we started. i found some cute yet inexpensive scarfs and lots of comfy shirts in BP. i was about to pay when my mommy stepped in and said she'd pay because it was my birthday present. happy birthday to me!!

we had a ball at the perfume counter even though my crazy sense of smell was in full force. we found my mom a great bvlgari scent that reminds me of her putting on paris while getting ready for an outing. they're so similar and rosey; i just loved smelling it!! i got the newer juicy scent as it was something i could stomach, at least for the day.

we also got some essentials at victoria's secret, kiehl's, and of course sprinkles!! i honestly don't think i've eaten a cupcake since i've been pregnant, and it was great to enjoy one for dessert. i split a red velvet and peanut butter chip since i can never decide between the two. oh cupcakes, how i've missed you!!

all in all, it was an incredibly fun and girly day, but i was beat by the end. i didn't end up napping, but i feel like i'm totally unprepared for kids if i can't even take care of myself after a day of shopping!! granted, i'm not a big shopper to begin with, but goodness gracious me. how will i handle things with multiple kids?? the older i get, the more i appreciate my mom and how she was able to do it all. :)

my grandma's obituary

i'm not sure why, but the local newspaper took out the line about her being the happiest person in the world. i'ma go down there and smack em!! anyway, here's what the fam put together about my granny. and yes, the .5 great grandchild is my baby boy. :)

Jeanne Eva Wilson (85), formerly of San Lorenzo passed away on Wednesday, April 8, 2008. Jeanne's big heart got too tired and finally let go. She is survived by her loving children, daughters: Eileen Boyce (Ken), and Mary Ann Bryant (Jeff), and her son Rob Wilson (Beth), six grand children: Stacy, Jeremy, Jeannette, Erik, Caitlin and Megan, 4½ great grandchildren: Sienna, Landon, Audriana, Warren and one on the way. Jeanne is also survived by her recently deceased sister, Betty Mann's, children: Julie, Denise and Debbie. Jeanne was born on Feb 29, 1924 and as a leap year baby officially celebrated her 21st birthday last year with her first "legal" drink alongside her legal grandchildren. She grew up in Oakland attending Oakland Tech High School (Wildcats) where she made and kept many lifetime friends. Her maiden name was Katz so she was literally a wildkatz. She married Jim Wilson in 1947 and they eventually settled in San Lorenzo where they raised their family. Jeanne led an active life including teaching swimming to adults until 2007. She worked for 50 years as a swimming instructor for the City of San Leandro, and was recognized for 65 years with the Red Cross as a swim instructor. Jeanne was also recognized with a presidential citation for teaching swimming to military nurses during WWll. She loved to travel and took many trips to Hawaii and Europe including visiting relatives in Belgium and France. She was also quite a talented artist with her watercolor paintings gracing many homes. Jeanne loved her family and friends, and took great pleasure in her interactions with them. She was a very special lady who left behind wonderful memories for those who knew her. Jeanne requested that a memorial service not be held. This request and her obituary are just like Jeanne, a lack of self-importance with a good dose of humor. Donations in her name may be made to the American Red Cross.