Wake up
Don't tell me it's just a dream
'Cause when I've had enough
You'll hear me say,
Now don't you try to rain on my

Perfect day,
Nothing's standing in my way

On this perfect day,
Nothing can go wrong (perfect day, hoku)

as i woke up yesterday, i decided today was going to be my fun day. i wasn't going to do any chores or anything that wasn't fun in my book. yeah, a little selfish, but i hadn't had a whole day of fun in a bit, and have been repressing stuff at work, so this was much needed!!

i started off with a shower with new shampoo, conditioner, and soap. girls, you might be the only ones with me, but new stuff makes you feel sooooo good and happy!! i was totally singing the whole time. after all that work, i was totally craving chocolate chip pancakes, bacon, oj, and coffee. random, because i normally eat breakfast like 2 days out of the year. i decided that erik and i needed to take a trip to the pancake house, so we did!!

when i got home, i hung out by the pool which was so great since the weather was perfect on saturday. warm enough where you want to cool off, but not that annoying hot. and juuuuust a bit of a cool bay breeze from time to time. after a while, i hopped back inside to start reading some silly magazines (cosmo, vogue, glamour, etc) and eat strawberries. yeah, it felt great to catch up on reading silly things and stuff my face with one of my favorite fruits. that's how i roll. ;)

then, i watched some x-games and talked to my best friend online for a bit. is it odd that my ex is one of my best friends?? sometimes i don't know how to act because i've never been so blessed to have a relationship like this before. he's so fun and energizes me a lot. (a lot is two words!!)

i was going to put a dvd in, but 10 things i hate about you was on tv, so i watched that and then grabbed taco bell. am i a cheap date, or what?? after, erik and i saw talladega nights. oh my freakin gosh. if you like will ferrell in any small way, you HAVE to see this movie. we were cracking up at EVERY line and people in the theatre were pretty quiet!! so many great lines and fantastic acting to everyone in the movie. i really want to see it again!!

so yeah, that was my pefect day, and i can pretty much die happy now!! on friday, i got to hang out with kassey and michelle at rudy's can't fail cafe in emerville. i strongly recommend the shakin jesse to start your meal. it's a shake with chocolate, espresso and guinness. it's heaven and i really wanted to order 5 of them. *giggles* so yeah, we hung out and talked for several hours and it was so much fun. i love that we can go so long without seeing each other and pick up like there was no lapse in time. although i do want to remedy that and hang out more often. woohoo!! so many fun memories of us hanging out in davis after hours, doing and talking about things i don't want to mention here. i had forgotten that part of my experience up there for a bit, and glad i got to reclaim it.

well, that's it for now. i hope you all enjoyed your weekend and had fun and perfect days, too!! :)

I'm bossy
I'm the first girl to scream on a track
I switched up the beat of the drum
That's right I brought all the boys to the yard
And that's right, I'm the one that's tattooed on his arm
I'm bossy
I'm the bitch y'all love to hate
I'm the chick that's raisin' stakes
I told young stunna he should switch to bass
I'm back with an 808 cause I'm bossy (i'm bossy, kelis)

what is so silly about the earthquake last night is that according to this, i shouldn't have felt anything at all. freakmont is below oakland, just sort of below where the map ends at the bottom. i SWEAR the shaking was pretty nice when i felt it!!

well, it's thursday and feels like friday which is just so wrong in my book. this week has been so long and frustrating work-wise that i really really don't want to go in tomorrow. luckily i'll be hanging out with kass and michelle (FINALLY!!) tomorrow night. and, the rents will be out of town for a bit on a cruise to alaska. it will be super quiet here and i'm looking forward to laid back nights, watching dvds and being a bum. i hope that i don't have to work late next week. i really want to just work a week of ONLY 8 hour days each day. big siiiiiiiigh.

okay, and just to clarify: when a guy is hitting on you and tells you he has a tongue ring, is that like an open invitation for him to lick your coochie-coochie?? (i saw charro on tv the other day, forgive me!!) but honestly...wtf is up with that?? you've at least got to be sexy like jay in clerks 2 when he says, ""oh, we totally do" in front of the spray painted side of the restaurant. best. line. ever. :)

shakey shakey

yes, i just felt that earthquake!! and it felt like it was right under me. 4.4 in santa rosa, but that's what if felt like here!!

okay, back to my movie...

giggles giggles and GIGGLES!! :P

juuuuuust got off of work, and thinking about dancing around in my room to my iPod. except that i have to have my earplugs plugged in cause i have no speakers!!

does anyone have any comments/thoughts about cool iPod speakers?? i know how the bose ones sound (and how much they are) but i'm wondering if any there are any other rockin ones out there that i'm missing out on.

oh, and if you're feeling generous, you can buy me the bose ones. :)

There goes my baby
She knows how to Rock'n Roll
She drives me crazy
She gives me hot and cold fever
Then she leaves me in a cool cool sweat (crazy little thing called love, queen)

when i get a free moment (oh, in a few days), remind me to grab my hockey stick and beat up the person who thought up this brilliant move. are you kidding??

grrrrrrrrr. in other news, i heard the above song playing on my way to work today. i <3 queen before coffee!! it gets me goin' quicker, too!! :)

i really want someone to help me pick out a few cool things to get from here. i feel a bit overwhelmed and have a thousand ideas. heeeeeelp!!

MIMI
It's out again
Sorry about your friend
Would you light my candle?

ROGER
Well

MIMI
Yeah. Ow!

ROGER
Oh, the wax - it's

MIMI
Dripping! I like it - between my

ROGER
Fingers, I figured ...
Oh, well. Goodnight ...
It blew out again? (would you light my candle, RENT)

i feel so lucky to have one of the most amazing cities in the world so close to me!! i love that i can take bart to sf for the night and have a fun night on the town with my girls. i'm not sure i could ever be hardcore enough to live there like almost any lair girl i know, but it's still got a special place in my heart.

slez, abbo, robyn, and i all went to see RENT last night. HORRAY!! we started with drinks and dinner at bambuddha. wow...this is in suuuuch a sketch part of town. slez and i were lookin all cute (and almost totally matching!!) and walking up a few blocks from civic center, so of course everyone's got to ask us if we're single, how we're doing, etc. i'm so glad that we walked together; safety in numbers!! and, i had some pretty sharp heels on if anyone got a bit out of line. i keeed, i keeeed!!

drinks were just okay at bambuddha, but that's fine because we got them for free. yeah, suckas!! abbo was smart enough to find out that a few places near golden gate theatre were giving free drinks if you showed your tix. it seriously took half of the charge off of the bill. loved it!! dinner was pretty good, nothing to die for, though. the plates feed several people, so we all just ordered one thing and split everything.

after dinner, we made the trek over to the theatre. let me tell you, we probably should have gone back down to market and walked over because we were in an even weirder part of town. there's 4 young, hot mamas, and too many sketchy people coming up to us. luckily the one person that was talking and walking with us the most sort of gave up when we were walking by a police station. HORRAY!!

we got to the thearte in one piece, saw kj, met an overbearing usher, and sat down. i'm so happy that slez got the tix for us. we were about 6 rows back, and it was soooo close!! RENT of course was amazing!! i had seen it about 6 or 7 years ago in the front row, and totally enjoyed seeing the actors spit on each other as they sang. hee hee!! we were close enough this time to enjoy that and see their sweat. it was hard not to sing to all the songs and do a little dance for my favorite. i hate just sitting straight in my chair and not moving!! i guess i'll have to get the dvd to do a little dance party next time.

after that, it was back to bart, and back home!! i got a new cuddly blanket, and it's finally cool enough here to sleep with it, so you know i got some sweet dreams. :) today looks like a chill day for me. which i'm very VERY happy about since i'm most likely working a few crazy insane days this week. boohoo to that!! i gotta just relax today and put that as far away from my mind as i can. well, enjoy your weekends...whatever you're doing!! :)

thank god canada just got this. you don't want to be the last country without "internet." although you might want to brush up on your "emoticons." lolz.

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world? (chasing cars, snow patrol)

soooo bouncy because erik got me a blue slurpee and i'm trying to download music to update my iPod. but it's not working!! that's okay...i can still bounce, right?? hee hee!! :)

you all need to get excited...


thanks to trent for the fabulous pic.

ahhhhhh, he was at comiccon!! snakes on a muthereffin samuel!!

this movie needs to come out TODAY!!

Love, love, love, what more is there?
'Cause we need the light of love in here
Don't beat your head
Dry your eyes
Let the love in there
There're bad times
But that's okay
Just look for love in it (pig, dave matthews band)

i am such a sucker for love.

<3 <3 <3

siiiiiiiiiigh.

You been saying all the right things all night long
But I can't seem to get you over here to help take this off
Baby, can't you see?
How these clothes are fitting on me
And the heat coming from this beat
I'm about to blow
I don't think you know

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh) (buttons, pussycat dolls)

i found this commercial a few weeks ago online, but i've never seen it on tv. i must have missed it when i was in canadia-land. love love love it!! go bears!!

aaaaaand, some quizzes to share!! :)

hee hee...i'm smoooooshie!!

Gummy Bears

You may be smooshie and taste unnatural, but you're so darn cute.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

see that, ULTRA sweet and innocent!! giggles!!

You Are Root Beer

Ultra sweet and innocent, you have a subtle complexity behind your sugary front. Children love you, but so do high end snobs... when you're brewed right. Your best soda compatibility match: Dr. Pepper Stay away from: Diet Coke

What Kind of Soda Are You?

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

very true, i am a ginormous ball of energy!! watch out!!

Your Birthdate: May 3

You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper. You are always on the go, but you don't have a type a personality. Instead of channeling your energy into work, you instead go for fun and adventure. Witty and verbal, you can have an interesting conversation with anyone. Your strength: Your larger than life imagination Your weakness: You tend to be pretty scattered Your power color: Lime Your power symbol: Lightening bolt Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Ain't no other man can stand up next to you
Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do
You're the kinda guy a girl finds in a blue moon
You got soul, you got class, you got style, you're bad ass
Ain't no other man, it's true
Ain't no other man but you (ain't no other man, christina aquilera)

hee hee...honey, i'm sorry to use christina aquilera, but she just saaaang it on the radio and i thought of you. :)

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase.
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space

And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Probably (crazy, gnarls barkley)

wow, it's been effin hot in the bay these last few days. doesn't help that i've had allergies pretty bad and cramps. it makes me super cranky-pants!! and yes, only *i* may call myself that. if you do, you'll enjoy a painful death. muahahahahahah!!

so, hypothetical question, but where in the heck is my prince charming?? it's so hot here and i really want someone to take care of me. i don't care if i sound whiney, but i want someone to get me a slurpee...draw a cool bath...just do nice things for me right now. i don't complain about much, but i feel miserable and would love it if someone actually cared. grrrrrrrrrr.

We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all? (delicate, damien rice)

I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me. (philippians 4:13)
why oh why am i always forgetting this? someone tattoo it on my hand or something.

well, happy humpday to everyone participating today. i sort of wanted to do an update with me, but since i'm not sure about a few things, it's just gonna have to wait!! right now, i am super excited for this weekend. dinner at my house with the roomies on friday, and pretty much nothing else planned for saturday and sunday. i'm going to go through old photos and update a few scrapbooks and junk like that cause it makes me happy. this weekend will be one juuuuuust for me. WOOHOO!!

Don't know why Tori came by
I could see by the look in her eyes
Tori'd been driving around the town for awhile
Playing with the thought of leaving

Don't know why Tori just smiled
Mentioned something 'bout how you were right
Must have been hard to see through the tears she was hiding
She said "I might not be seeing him soon
I got a few things I've been waiting to do"

Hey, Tori came by, Tori came by tonight
Hey, Tori came by, she says to say goodbye

Looked outside at the car in the drive
And the suitcase on the backseat inside
Sure it's so, she can't look out behind at the road
She said "I might not be seein him soon
I've got a few things I've been waiting to do"

Hey, Tori came by, Tori came by tonight
Hey, Tori came by, she says to say goodbye

Don't look down, she seemed alright
You might be asking where is Tori tonight
Somewhere out on the highway
I'm sure that she's fine (victoria, john mayer)

the only thing i can find to be happy about right now is the 102 degree heat and my smoothie in hand. i don't mean to sound so dramatic, but that's about it right now.

We loved each other tenderly
Like we loved all lovers
Then when day you left me
Ever since I've been desperate
I see you everywhere in the sky
I see you everywhere on the earth
You are my joy and my sun
My nights, my days, my clear dawns

You are everywhere because you are in my heart
You are everywhere because you are my happiness
Everything that is around me
Even life does not represent you
Sometimes I dream that I am in your arms
And you speak softly in my ear
You tell me things that make me close my eyes
And I find that marvellous

Maybe one day you will return
I know that my heart waits for you
You can not forget
The past days we spent together
My eyes never stop searching for you
Listen well, my heart calls you
We can love each other again
And you'll see life would be beautiful (tu es partout, edith piaf)

because i had a free moment at work...

Your Stripper Song Is

Like a Virgin by Madonna "Like a virgin, ooh, ooh Like a virgin Feels so good inside When you hold me, and your heart beats, and you love me" No virgin-ness implied. Not at all.

What Song Should You Strip To?

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer
inside of me, threatening the life they belong to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe (breathe, anna nalick)

i love being a girl. i will always dream about beautiful things.

question of the day: what kind of girl drinks fat tire??

for some reason, people always seem to ask me if i've ever had it and proceed to tell me that it would be my perfect beer. it was definately the choice of last summer's thank yous at our staff meeting which always made me very happy. but random guys at a bar, even old friends tell me that they associate that beer with me. i do drink it occasionaly and love it, but now i wonder, what kind of girl drinks fat tire??

You've got such a pretty smile.
It's a shame the things you hide behind it.
Let em go give it up for a while...
Let em free and we will both go find it.

I know there's no where you can hide it.
I know the feeling of alone.
I know that you do not feel invited,
But come back, come back in from the cold. (i know, jude)

i totally forgot to mention that at the lair there were a few afternoon thunderstorms!! i was a bit afraid because the last time they were that loud, lightning hit like 50' away from where i was...outside!! eeeeeekkk!! i get so excited about thunder when i'm inside and safe; it's such a fun turn of events when you're outside. i don't think it was any closer than 15 miles from us, but it sure did get my heart racin!! i secretly loved it!! <3

on a slightly more serious note, please keep my friends chris and jordan in your thoughts and prayers. chris is getting a new kidney from jordan and that's happening today!! i'm so happy for chris finally getting one and for jordan for donating his!!! thanks everyone...and enjoy your friday!! :)

i love that i can see fireworks from my room. horray to the fools for shooting off illegal ones!!

although the view is nothing like this...

All through the night
I'll be watching over you
All through the night
I'll be standing over you
And through the bad dreams
I'll be right there, baby

Holding your hand,
telling you everything's gonna be all right
And when you cry
I'll be right there
Telling you you were never anything less than beautiful
So don't you worry,
I'm your Angel standing by (angel standing by, jewel)

happy 4th of july to everyone!! i hope you enjoy your day off, stuff your bellies, and enjoy some spectacular fireworks!!

all right. i wanted to do a little day by day update of the lair, but it all went by in a flash and i have no idea what happened when. so here's a little synopsis of what i remember. :)

i pulled in the blue office and it was so great to see everyone!! it felt like i hadn't left at all!! oski's party was that night, and it must have been a really hot day because i was hot in my leotard as poison ivy!! (i still can't believe i wore that to a party) usually it's a cold weekend during third week. i had such a fun time meeting rookies at the party (who knew me from previous summers....eeeek!!) and people thinking my hair was really orange. i thought it was the most obvious wig!! obvi!! but yes...had a great time!!

for the rest of the week, i slept in every day for breakfast with the exception of one day. i did take my aunt beth to the serene bean and had the world's best white mocha. i read a ton and swam a bunch in the beginning of the week and did get up to therapy once with tons of staff, and sketchy ex. it was the first time for megan and erik, and i think they totally loved it. boohoo to the gypos who were screaming and singing during the sunset. efffff you!!

i did get to see the new superman movie with the new retail team on tuesday night. it was such a great movie, and i liked how i hadn't seen any previews for it so i had no expectations. there was a great story, superb cast and no cheesy parts. i liked it so much, i saw it again on saturday!!

this was definately the week of butterflies, too!! they were everywhere!! they were flying around no matter where you were. they had little purple ones down by the gold waaaay-outfield in that extended field. i was so inspired by them that i actually painted a tile with flutter-byes on it!! it didn't come out that great, but it was sort of the theme for the week.

thursday night is when most of the sketchy-ex showed up. it was so fun to see everyone again. i love sitting in the staff area drinking and catching up with old friends. friday was gary at the berry, and i swear that doesn't usually happen third week. who knows. thanks to gary, i had several adult beverages and then saw tons more ex-staffers. i don't remember talking to people for a long time, but i did see roomie and that totally made my night!!

i'm so happy i stayed saturday night because the blue directors party was tons of fun. i wasn't sure how it would be when i had my first shot of vodka and almost booted. it was a little too ghetto and pretty much tasted like hairspray. i am the queen of vodka, too!! i guess just not with the cheap shit. anyway, i drank and danced the night away and had a fantastic time looking at the stars on the way back. :)

sunday i got to sleep in (horray!!) and hang out again with retail...hopefully not bugging them too much. i want to help out as much as i can, and i hope i wasn't too much of a burden. i rode back with caitlin, and we had the best car ride on the way down. i love that we can talk about sketchy stuff and share lair memories and just giggle together. it sounds like she's gonna have the best summer!!

so yeah, that's my very condensed and not totally detail oriented update. just a few fun memories!! :)

Nobody else here baby no one else here to blame
No one to point the finger...
It's just you and me and the rain
Nobody made you do it, no one put words in your mouth
Nobody here taking orders when love took a train heading south
It's the blind leading the blond
It's the stuff the stuff of country songs

If God will send his angels
And if God will send a sign
And if God will send his angels
Would everything be alright? (if god will send his angels, u2)

so i feel like i need to do this gi-normous lair update but there was so much that went on that i have no idea where to begin. all i should say is that i got everything crossed off my list except for a massage. well, wait...i did get one of those and i didn't have to pay. hee hee!!

yeah...maybe i'll get back to a lovely update when i'm not totally swamped with catching up with workie-work. :)

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today was a super long day for me. about 12 hours at work which just seems to drain me!! it always takes a while to catch a bus when i'm coming home later, and bart is always filled with um, more lively people than it is at 6 in the morning. :)

all is well, though. i got everything done that needed to get done, and i feel great knowing that. the sunset was amazing tonight, and i loved standing outside after i got off of bart and smelling the summer air. am i a big freak, or does it have the most delightful scent?? not that any other seasons are worse, but i think it was the first time it smelled like summer to me this year. there i was, in the front of bart, with a big goofy grin on my face just smelling the beautiful breeze.

i'm going to be at the lair for the next week for those unaware, and i can't think of a more perfect time for a vacation!! the cooler is full of beer; just lead me to the pool!! i plan on doing a lot of hanging out, reading, hanging out, swimming, and napping. AND...maybe i'll treat myself to a massage. i've never had one before, and i think it's time to finally get one!! :)

and for your moment of zen: an article written by ben stein 2 years ago. i'm not sure it's the complete article, but i like all the same. :)

How Can Someone Who Lives in Insane Luxury Be a Star in Today's World?

As I begin to write this, I "slug" it, as we writers say, which means I
put a heading on top of the document to identify it. This heading is
"FINAL," and it gives me a shiver to write it. I have been doing this
column for so long that I cannot even recall when I started. I loved
writing this column so much for so long I came to believe it would never
end. It worked well for a long time, but gradually, my changing as a
person and the world's change have overtaken it.

On a small scale, Morton's [famous restaurant which was often frequented
by Hollywood stars], while better than ever, no longer attracts as many
stars as it used to. It still brings in the rich people in droves and
definitely some stars. I saw Samuel L. Jackson there a few days ago, and
we had a nice visit, and right before that, I saw and had a splendid
talk with Warren Beatty in an elevator, in which we agreed that Splendor
in the Grass was a super movie. But Morton's is not the star galaxy it
once was, though it probably will be again.

Beyond that, a bigger change has happened. I no longer think Hollywood
stars are terribly important. They are uniformly pleasant, friendly
people, and they treat me better than I deserve to be treated. But a man
or woman who makes a huge wage for memorizing lines and reciting them in
front of a camera is no longer my idea of a shining star we should all
look up to.

How can a man or woman who makes an eight-figure wage and lives in
insane luxury really be a star in today's world, if by a "star" we mean
someone bright and powerful and attractive as a role model? Real stars
are not riding around in the backs of limousines or in Porsches or
getting trained in yoga or Pilates and eating only raw fruit while they
have Vietnamese girls do their nails. They can be interesting, nice
people, but they are not heroes to me any longer.

A real star is the soldier of the 4th Infantry Division who poked his
head into a hole on a farm near Tikrit, Iraq. He could have been met by
a bomb or a hail of AK-47 bullets. Instead, he faced an abject Saddam
Hussein and the gratitude of all of the decent people of the world. A
real star is the U.S. soldier who was sent to disarm a bomb next to a
road north of Baghdad. He approached it, and the bomb went off and
killed him.. A real star, the kind who haunts my memory night and day,
is the U.S. soldier in Baghdad who saw a little girl playing with a
piece of unexploded ordnance on a street near where he was guarding a
station. He pushed her aside and threw himself on it just as it
exploded. He left a family desolate in California and a little girl
alive in Baghdad.

The stars who deserve media attention are not the ones who have lavish
weddings on TV but the ones who patrol the streets of Mosul even after
two of their buddies were murdered and their bodies battered and
stripped for the sin of trying to protect Iraqis from terrorists. We put
couples with incomes of $100 million a year on the covers of our
magazines.

The noncoms and officers who barely scrape by on military pay but stand
on guard in Afghanistan and Iraq and on ships and in submarines and near
the Arctic Circle are anonymous as they live and die.

I am no longer comfortable being a part of the system that has such poor
values, and I do not want to perpetuate those values by pretending that
who is eating at Morton's is a big subject. There are plenty of other
stars in the American firmament....the policemen and women who go off on
patrol in South Central and have no idea if they will return alive. The
orderlies and paramedics who bring in people who have been in terrible
accidents and prepare them for surgery, the teachers and nurses who
throw their whole spirits into caring for autistic children, the kind
men and women who work in hospices and in cancer wards. Think of each
and every fireman who was running up the stairs at the World Trade
Center as the towers began to collapse.

Now you have my idea of a real hero. We are not responsible for the
operation of the universe, and what happens to us is not terribly
important.

God is real, not a fiction, and when we turn over our lives to Him, he
takes far better care of us than we could ever do for ourselves. In a
word, we make ourselves sane when we fire ourselves as the directors of
the movie of our lives and turn the power over to Him.

I came to realize that life lived to help others is the only one that
matters. This is my highest and best use as a human. I can put it
another way. Years ago, I realized I could never be as great an actor as
Olivier or as good a comic as Steve Martin--or Martin Mull or Fred
Willard--or as good an economist as Samuelson or Friedman, or as good a
writer as Fitzgerald. Or even remotely close to any of them. But I could
be a devoted father to my son, husband to my wife and, above all, a good
son to the parents who had done so much for me. This came to be my main
task in life. I did it moderately well with my son, pretty well with my
wife and well indeed with my parents (with my sister's help). I cared
for and paid attention to them in their declining years. I stayed with
my father as he got sick, went into extremis, into a coma, and then
entered immortality with my sister and me reading him the Psalms.

This was the only point at which my life touched the lives of the
soldiers in Iraq or the firefighters in New York. I came to realize that
life lived to help others is the only one that matters and that it is my
duty, in return for the lavish life God has devolved upon me, to help
others He has placed in my path. This is my highest and best use as a
human.

kristi yamaguchi is awesome because
1. she's from fremont
2. she married a hockey player and
3. she has her baby in the top of the stanley cup, and that's just so adorable.

it is official: i can die happy.

sigh.

i went to the "state of the sharks" tonight which was a q&a event the sharks organization put on to discuss the season and anything inbetween. greg jamison, doug wilson, ron wilson, and jonathan cheechoo were fielding questions, so you know i just *had* to be there. to ask important questions, of course!!

i walked in, and there had to be a few hundred people there!! way more than i expected, especially since it was game 7 of the stanley cup finals!! luckily, we were given updates with each goal scored. :)

i was a little nervous i wasn't going to get to ask my questions because there were maybe 6 people before me when they announced cheech was only going to stay for 15 more minutes. and people were asking questions that lasted 15 minutes!! i had decided at one point, when cheechoo was talking about dropping weight, and how it was tough because he likes to eat, that i'd have to incorporate a question into that. then, they told us that they'd only have time for one more cheechoo question, and it was my turn!! some girl tried to cut in front of me, but i was like, "awww hell naw...i was here first and i have a question for him!!"

the guy behind me told me to say something nice about him taking time for the first nations youth, so i repreated that and said i had a two part question. i looked mr. cheechoo in the eyes and asked, "now as more of a seasoned veteran, what will you emphasize and challenge this next crop of rookies coming in? the second part to my question is: i just drove here for work and i'm pretty hungry. you said you like food a lot and i was wondering if you'd like to grab a bite to eat after this."

i was so nervous, but i think i sounded pretty confident, and the place erupted in laughter, cheering, and clapping. kae has it on her phone, and it's hilarious!! doug wilson said, "finally...we can get a date for you, cheech!!" and cheech looked over, totally blushing, asking the guys what the first question was. poor thing.

he stammered his way through the first part, and then said that his brother was in town and that they were hanging out tonight. luckily, i didn't sound too serious in my request, and i just smiled and said thanks. i had to walk alllll the way back up to the top where kae and teesta were and i've never had so many people pat me on the back, and woman cheer for me!! we decided it was time to leave, cause cheech had to go, so we made a quick stop to the bathroom. that included tons more support for random ladies, and they all told me how great it was that someone had asked him that question. i had someone tell me where he eats dinner once in a while (uh, hi, stalker) and someone come up to me after, when i was eating, to tell me that she liked, "THE question." :)

after we walked out of the building, and around the side, we saw that cheech was there signing autographs for these little kids. i decided i'd say hi quickly, so i hopped to the end of the line. when i got up to the front, i told him that i didn't mean to embarass him, and that i wanted to keep the session a little light. he laughed a bit, and i was so nervous i had no idea what to say after that!! luckily, he asked me my name and shook my hand. siiiiiigh. and, i was too shy that i didn't say anything else after that except for thanks for coming out or something lame like that.

so yeah, that's my happy story. hockey might be over for a few months, but i'm still one excited netters. :)

What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us.
~Ralph Waldo Emerson

i think bears are sad i left vancouver. they're like, "netties, come oot and play!! where didja go??"

I took a little nap where the roots all twist
squished a rotten peach in my fist
and dreamed about you woman
I poked my finger down inside make a little room for an ant to hide
nature's candy in my hand or can or pie (peaches, presidents of the united states of america)

i love love love summah time. it means peaches, nectarines, melons, strawberries, and raspberries!! all straight from the fridge so they're incredibly refreshing after i have been in the sun. omgomgomg, i honestly think eating fresh, cold fruit on a beautiful day is heaven on earth!!

i took the pops to see nacho libre today and it was pretty sweet. i totally want to marry someone sexy like nacho and have little ninos with him. "little hug, big kiss..." hee hee!!

all right, time to clean up my room a bit. i actually bought a few things for myself yesterday...cute little organizing things for my desk...and i have decided that's my "prize" for cleaning up. i feel like i'm 5 again, but it's good motivation!! and, it helps to make a game out of it since i haven't bought much for myself lately and feel guilty. it's not like i went out and blew a few hundred bucks on a purse...it's only a few things for my desk and a cute notebook!! :)

yeah, yeah, i don't believe it either!! i'm actually asigned a costume for oski's party!!

caitlin just left me a message letting me know that i get to be Poison Ivy for the Two Peas in a Motherfuckin Pod! party!! i'm not paired up with anyone, but when you get to be Poison Ivy...come on. you don't want anyone else with you.

i'm soooo excited about creating my costume and hopefully finding some huge ass boots at a thrift store so i can cover them in leaves!!

i don't know if i'm more excited that i was actually on the list or that i get to be something so spicy!! Posion Ivy is the motherfuckin bomb!!

Like a moth to a flame
Burned by the fire (that's the way love goes, janet jackson)

first, i want to say that i adore my hairdresser. she always remembers the last few things we've talked about, even if it happened months ago. i really appreciate that she takes time to find out how i'm growing in my life and what's new and exciting with me. i also love that she never bullshits with me, either. she's not afraid to tell me how it is, and i love that about her. also, i love the fact that she told me i look skinnier. woohoo!!

okay, so i saw An Inconvenient Truth tonight with erik. i'm so happy i found it playing in a theatre near me!! it was just how i expected it to be...al gore talking about global warming and showing horrible pictures of ice sheets melting, graphs of co2 emissions, etc. i really wasn't sure where he was going at one or two points in the documentary. he brought up his son, and the election, and i'm thinking, wtf does this have to do with global warming, you selfish dude?? but it's great to see that background and it explains why he believes so strongly about how we can change our future. i totally recommend it to everyone!! oh, and a friend from the lair has his face in it twice, as a member of the audience gore is speaking to. the first time i saw him, i gasped and said his name with "fucking" as the middle name. sorry to the people around me...i wasn't expecting it!! :)

time to enjoy this beautiful night and relax this weekend. horray!!

i was in the middle of a dream this morning, which of course felt like reality, when all of a sudden i thought i heard someone whisper very softly next to my ear, "stop" and then everything went black. i was very confused at the time because i was having an "elementary school reunion" at denny's and all my old pals were dressed up. i remember all the small details of the place, from the tiles and carpet on the floor to the tables full of plates and different orders to the weird smell of all the food mixing together. even the costumes my friends were wearing; everyone was dressed up like animals and i could see with great clarity the detail of feathers, smooth surfaces, etc. it was odd to all of a sudden have everything go black.

i opened my eyes to notice that i was actually in my bed, covered in blankets. i started to move my head to the other side of my bed where my clock is when i felt shaking!! omg, an earthquake!! it seemed pretty strong, and i could hear the whole house creaking, so i jumped up and ran into the doorway. at this point, i'm thinking it's insane that i've woken up from an earthquake. i pretty much sleep through anything, including a fire alarm AND fire on my floor my freshman year at the dorms at davis.

i assumed erik would walk outside his door at any moment, or maybe i'd hear my mom or dad downstairs check on us. after the house finished settling, i went downstairs to see if anyone did wake up, and there was silence!! nobody else woke up!! i jumped on my dad's computer and went to the us geoglogical site cause i'm a big nerd. after every earthquake i feel, i always go there and fill out the form about what i felt, where i was, how i reacted, etc. also, they have cool maps of the intensity of the quake by region, area code, and you can see how big it was, and any little aftershocks.

i was disappointed to find out that it was only 4.7. for some reason, the shaking felt pretty intense to me, and i thought it was at least a 5.5 from my house. i'm not sure if the shaking just felt intensified since i was on my bed, and that might have been rocking back and forth a bit more because of the type of earthquake waves.

i tried going back to sleep, but when you're awake at 5:24 and excited, it's hard to rest your pretty little head for another hour. :)

I love Paris in the spring time
I love Paris in the fall
I love Paris in the summer when it sizzles
I love Paris in the winter when it drizzles

I love Paris every moment
Every moment of the year
I love Paris, why oh why do I love Paris
Because my love is here (i love paris, ella fitzgerald)


oh paris. you and i have a date. someday i'll be back. i promise.

Lost a few pounds in my waist for ya
This the kinda beat that go ra-ta-ta
Ra-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta
Sex me so good I say blah-blah-blah
Work it, I need a glass of water (work it, missy elliott)

i finally finished reading pillars of the earth, and it's my new favorite book!! my aunt was really excited when she gave it to me, and kept bubbling about how awesome it was. i think it took 500 pages to really get into, but it was worth it!! i think the first half of the book was really the foundation for everything else that happened. the author couldn't just throw random roadblocks in the way of the main characters; they had the be set in motion a long time before. omg, it was sooooo good!!

i had a lot of dreams last night...well, a lot that i remember at least. it was funny because i started most of them thinking to myself, "i bet this is a dream. let's see what happens." then it would become incredibly detailed with long conversations, lots of colors and items around me. also, i can remember how things tasted that i was eating. the first thing i ate was a bagel, and i can remember every bit of it!! all of my dreams were so detailed and different that it's hard to pick a theme of them. but they sort of were related to pillars of the earth. there was a part or two from the book that my mind somehow updated to the present with people i know. it's so freaky to have such amazing dreams and wake up and try to figure out what really happened!!

i went to the gym already, and i'm pretty sad that i haven't been going the last few weeks. i always feel so happy after i exercise, and i've been incredibly lazy and selfish lately. i'm going to try to make more of an effort to really start kicking ass and taking names!! NO PAIN, NO GAIN!!

well, i'm off to enjoy the rest of my day. i think i'm going to read some comics in the hammock by the pool. with a cold smoothie by my side, i could possibly be the happiest gol there ever was. enjoy your SUNday!! :)

Where are you going, where do you go?
Are you looking for answers, to questions under the stars?
If along the way you are growing weary,
you can rest with me until a brighter day
It’s okay, where are you going, where do you go? (where are you going, dave matthews band)

i love coffee and donuts. so much so that i pretty much just made out with my jelly-filled donut. mmmmmmmmmmmmmm. i'm such a wannabe canadian.

in related (canadian!!) news, edmonton REALLY sucks. roloson was such a cheater (tripping players, shaking his mask off his face so nobody could score in an open net) and i'm happy they lost by a million last night. with him not in net, they're playing like a normal hockey team...one that everyone else should have beat before. i hope it's a sweep and everyone in edmonton cries. i honestly could not stop jumping up and down last night when i saw the final score. horray!!

Oh baby when you talk like that
You make a woman go mad
So be wise and keep on
Reading the signs of my body

And I'm on tonight
You know my hips don't lie
And I'm starting to feel it's right
All the attraction, the tension
Don't you see baby, this is perfection (hips don't lie, shakira)

i was sitting down eating dinner when erik mentioned that our neighbor next door's brother spoke to him this morning about good news. i guess they usually see each other in the morning, and erik asked how he was doing. paul replied that he was great because he found out that he didn't have a brain tumor!! i got so excited that i had my dad call and find out what his favorite ice cream flavor was. he needed some, "i'm so glad you don't have a brain tumor, now have some yummy ice cream" ice cream!! i think he was really happy to get it. he had one of the biggest smiles i've ever seen. :)

AND...in hockey news, edmonton sucks!! i'm so glad they lost tonight, and what a fitting way because their goalies cheat and are rude and mean!!! unfort, it wasn't roloson in net, because he deserved that last goal scored. i hope carolina sweeps you!!

Put your head on my shoulder
Hold me in your arms, baby
Squeeze me oh so tight
Show me, that you love me too

Put your lips next to mine,dear
Won't you kiss me once, baby
Just a kiss goodnight, maybe
You and I will fall in love (put your head on my shoulder, michael buble)

this weekend was so much fun!! i had a great time at the a's game right after work on friday with merin, lauren and king!! i think it was the first baseball game i went to that i pretty much missed every play. it was great to cheer for the a's now and then, but really fun to catch up and giggle with the girls!! i also get really excited to see my friends in love, happy, and treated well. it's hard not to feel a twinge of jealousy, but i am still so happy that they've found love. :)

saturday was another a's game (cause i'm a superfan like that) with erik and his buds for his birthday. i want to mention how much i *love* stomper dancing before the game starts. only in oakland can a mascot get down like that. but yes, i had a great time baking in the sun munching on nachos. i'm so easy to please. after that, we hung out at chili's and the day was over!!

today was landon's SECOND birthday. omg. it was already two years ago when i saw that little squit pop out of stacy!! i'm becoming one of those people who's like, "i remember when..."!!! eek!! he's totally cute, running around with a mohawk and rub on tats. like the cool armband ones. it's adorable and a half. and, i was so happy to see michelle and talk to her for the first time since she announced she's preggers!! it's fascinating to see my family expanding. michelle and j.j. are going to be the greatest parents.

i am pooped from being in the sun all weekend and walking a ton!! but it made me a dark berry with better muscle tone. i shouldn't complain!! now it's time for a nice relaxing bath and then bed. sigh, and as i type this, there's a beautiful sunset. the blue sky is a perfect light shade with a little bit of lavendar and light pink. it's amazing and incredible and i can't believe i get to see new ones each day. a special present from god, that's for sure. :)

look at me, so silly, wearing my heart on my sleeve...i mean boob...again.


ah yes, this is more like it. (wouldn't this be a sweet tat on mah hip??)

I follow the night
Can't stand the light
When will I begin to live again

One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
What more could your love do for me
When will love be through with me
Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day when dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day when dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away
Fly fly away (one day i'll fly away, moulin rouge soundtrack)



i've had that song stuck in my head for the last day or two. i love singing it in the shower and totally not hitting the high notes, but not sounding horrible since the bathroom has great acoustics. i saw this flutter-by pic and thought of the song.

this song is so sad to me, so i don't know why it's been stuck in my head. i hate how there's a theme of giving up, when we all know love is worth fighting for. keep living dream to dream!!

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13 (NIV)

are you there god? it's me, jeannette. and no, i don't want to increase my bust (judy blume humor). *giggles* can i go back to being the crazy, silly, dancing netties that i used to be?? cause i'm so over this other person i've been. :)

resentment is like taking poison and hoping the other person will die.

Do you want to change your mind?
You can always change your mind

You and I can quit this scene
Build a town and then secede
Like an Adam and an Eve (manifest destiny, guster)

cheechoo or teemu??

i think we all know the answer to this question. :)

Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Why are we here and where do we go
And how come it's so hard
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing
It's always better when we're together (better together, jack johnson)

so the guy at u.s. customs was right. he told me that whatever you're doing at midnight of new year's eve is what you'll be doing the next year. i wish i had been doing something fun rather than fretting.

i've decided that there's only so much worrying you can do, and there are some things you really have to let go of and let happen on their own. it's hard to feel that you're not in control, but it's the only way to *live* your life. and everyone knows there's nothing more i love then life. i haven't had as much time to take in the little things, like slurpees, sunsets, and flowers. i wonder how i've been functioning lately. *blah*

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

Come in from the cold for a while,
Everything will be all right
Come in from the noise for a time,
Everything will be alright (spoon, dave matthews band)

everyone keeps asking me what i'm going to do this three day weekend. i feel like i want to watch nothing but girly movies and cry. who's with me?

For you I would crawl
Through the darkest dungeon
Climb a castle wall
If you're my Rapunzel
You let your hair down
Right in through your window
Good, they locked the door
'Cause I do my best for you

I think the world of you
All of my heart I do
Blood through my veins for you
You alone have all of me
I give my world to you
To you I will be true (rapunzel, dave matthews band)

9 lasts...

9. last place you were: hilary's office, touching the printer...hee hee!!
8. last cigarette: years ago
7. last beverage: cranberry juice
6. last kind of candy: i can't remember. does bubble gum count??
5. last phone call: randy
4. last cd played: dave matthew band
3. last bubble bath: a few weeks ago
2. last kiss: on the cheek...twice...joe middleton, 15 minutes ago
1. last alcoholic drink: fat tire on monday


8 have you evers...

8. have you ever dated someone twice: sort of
7. have you ever been cheated on: not that i know of
6. have you ever cheated on someone: nope
5. have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: sure
4. have you ever fallen in love: of course!!
3. have you ever lost someone: yeah
2. have you ever been depressed: yup
1. have you ever dumped someone: yeah...but i don't like that word!! it implies negative stuff!!

7 states you've been to...

7. Cali
6. Nevada
5. Washington
4. Oregon
3. D.C., technically, on a flight layover
2. and nothing
1. else in the U.S


6 things you've done today...

6. giggled with hilary
5. did like a hundred small jobs at work (including becoming the coffee and lunch bitch)
4. brought cuppicakes into work!! i had time yesterday to bake!!
3. wished erik a happy birthday!!
2. sang like a rockstar on the way into work
1. ran tons of reports

5 people you can tell pretty much anything to...

5. erik
4. mom
3. dres
2. kelly
1. bean

4 places you want to go...

4. hawaii
3. paris...again!!
2. austrailia/new zealand
1. ireland

3 favorite colors...

3. pink
2. sparkles
1. pink

2 things you want to do before you die...

2. have babies
1. help others for a living


1 thing you wish you could change...

1. peoples perspective on how much they consume

Come and relax now
Put your troubles down
No need to bear the weight of your worries
You let them all fall away (pantala naga pampa, dave matthews band)

working billion hour days and feeling sick make netties feel run down.

sigh.

i think i need cupcakes to make me feel better. oh, but when will i have the time to bake?? i just want a week off where i can relax, read, swim, and not deal with anything. am i a lazy gal or what??

today is world turtle day!! no, seriously, it is!!



that guy is chompin on some yummy grass!! it reminds me of one of the turtles i used to have. omg, he loooooved eating and would have the cutest way of chompin down on raspberries and other fruits. hee hee!! but yeah, celebrate turtles today. horray!! :)

Baby, It's alright
Stop your cryin' now (baby, dave matthews)

as everyone knows, the sharks didn't make it past the oilers last night. it seems silly, but it's a bit depressing as a fan when your team has made the playoffs and then loses. i guess it's because of the time you put into watching games, cheering players, looking up stats, etc. i'm actually wearing my jersey today to help me feel good about the season. the sharks played very well this year and i'm proud of the effort of every player put into each game. it's just hard knowing there won't be a sharks game to listen to or watch for the next few months!!

also, i heard drew will be leaving the broadcast booth to return home to be with his family. damn!! i'm pretty sad about this, especially since he always had the balls to talk about how the refs sucked if they really were. there will be no other color commentator to fill your shoes, drew. thank your family for letting us "borrow" you for the last few years. it's been a great run.

siiiiiiiiiiiigh.

other than that, life is good right now!! i'm working hard and loving life. peace out, kiddies!! :)

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky (the blower's daughter, damien rice)

it's funny to me that i have so many things to say and such an eloquent way of stating what it is that i want to say, but it just sits there in my brain. all i really can do is feel shocked and say nothing.

there are two sides to every story and tonight, i didn't get to tell mine.

thank you, sjsharks.com, for this fantastic follow-up. they heard me singing!! :)

i cannot believe the coverage this thing is getting. there was an "article" on the front page of yahoo! which was really just two paragraphs about sharks fans booing. and it included a sentence about how nobody in edmonton had ever booed before, which was funny because they had. why would you include that in the "article"?? also, it was clear it was thrown together in two seconds because there was no author and nobody was claiming ownership to it, like ap, reuters, etc.

what's even odder is that the alleged reason why canadian fans were booing during the u.s. national anthem is because someone in the a/v crew at their place put a picture of joe thornton on the screen as they were singing. first of all, he's canadian, and second of all, he's from another team. of course you're going to get boos. one american dollar says that guy's been fired.

but yes, big props to the article above. it's very mature and i hope lets the rest of the hockey world know that a few assholes blew it, not dedicated sharkies fans. LET'S GO SHARKS!!

this message does not go out to all sharks fans, but a small chunk of them at the game last night.

first, never, ever boo for the opposing team's national anthem. i do not care that edmonton did it at their last home game. do not stoop to their level. did you forget that a majority of the players on the sharks are FROM CANADA?? yeah, it's true. how do you think they feel when you're booing THEIR national anthem?? lame. for the record, i starting singing, "o canada" and people around me followed because they were embarassed for the booing.

second, you may NOT call yourself a sharks fan if you left the game early last night. you may NEVER call yourself a hockey fan if you were one of the ones that got up IN THE MIDDLE OF PLAY and blocked my view. i don't care if the sharks are losing by 10, i'm staying. that does not mean that you may obstruct my view because you're a fairweather fan who drinks 7 beers a game and probably doesn't know what a two line pass is. it's people like you that give fans a bad name, and you should not be allowed back into hp pavillion.

all right...deep breath. hee hee!! just a little rant...i'm over it. sort of. :)

time for some sleepies for me!! i have mother's day brunch all planned out, flowers picked up, presents wrapped, card signed, and my game face on. yes, i scored two tickets for tomorrow's sharks game, so i'm takin the moms with me!! i'm so glad she likes hockey!!

and now, your moment of zen.

Dance the night away by karchan85
Name
What you Look like
The Music	J-Rock
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Behind all of your tears
There's a smile
There's a smile
Behind all of the rain
There's a sunshine
For miles and miles

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me

The colors of your garden
They're yellow, blue and green
And the sound of your sweet voice
It's better than all my dreams

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me

Your my first thought in the morning
When I rise
Oh- when I rise
You're my last thought in the evening
When I rest my head at night

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me

Oh- Everything
Everything
You mean everything
You mean everything
Everything to me
Everything to me
Everything to me
Everything to me (everything, ben harper)

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond imagination. It is our light more than our darkness which scares us. We ask ourselves – who are we to be brilliant, beautiful, talented, and fabulous. But honestly, who are you to not be so?

You are a child of God, small games do not work in this world. For those around us to feel peace, it is not example to make ourselves small. We were born to express the glory of God that lives in us. It is not in some of us, it is in all of us. While we allow our light to shine, we unconsciously give permission for others to do the same. When we liberate ourselves from our own fears, simply our presence may liberate others."
- Marianne Williamson in Return to Love: Reflections on a Course in Miracles

and on a happy note, there is a wave of cool light shining brightly through my window right now. i love the full moon and that it's warm inside, but i can feel the gentle breeze flow through my window. all of that gives me butterflies in my belly. sigh. 'night!! :)

i strongly dislike the cbc announcers for the following reasons:

*not knowing how to pronounce last names of sharks players.

*getting sharks players confused.

*saying bullshit things like, "wow, roloson had total confidence in that last play" although he never touched the puck since he couldn't find it.

*replaying edmonton shots over and over and giving the sharks no credit when they shoot an amazing shot.

*talking shit about san jose's ice just because it's in california. san jose has good ice. there are no bad bounces and it's not soft.

*they're big pussies on the air. anytime a penalty is not called, they don't review it, or even talk about it. for either team.

randy and drew, i will pay you and cook for you if you come over for the next game so i can hear your sweet voices and more of an un-biased opinion.

edmonton fans at the game...sucks to be you. the coolest song they've played at your arena is cotton-eyed joe?? a laugh and a freakin half.

all right...back to the game. GOOOO SHARKS!!

hey kiddies, are you loving this weather?? it's so beautiful and sunny and warm. it's really hard to sit here in the office when all i want to do is go for a walk and take a nap under a tree. :)

i had a super fun time at the a's game on saturday. sometimes, i tend to feel a little sad when not everyone i invite for my usual birthday bash can come out. but seriously, 30 people to talk to during an a's game?? i can't do it!! even though there were only a few, i had so much fun cheering the a's on. and really, everyone who can't come pretty much promised to take me out to dinner at some point. awww yeah!! back to the game...i was pumped that an error on tampa bay in the ninth gave them a win. let's go oakland!!

the sharks game on monday was incredible!! i'm still so happy that i was lucky enough to get a ticket for the game. :) i think the loudest i've ever heard the tank was during this play. you can almost see teesta and i!! we were waving our teal pom poms like crazy and screaming!! i also had fun with the cheechoo train whistle. sometimes when he was open, i'd blow it, so joe would know he could pass it to him. he didn't always listen to me, though. hee hee!! it's okay because the sharks got a win, and that's all that matters.

tonight is game 3, and i'm hoping they can play their hearts out!! sweep for sj, horray!! :) i'm really hoping the sharks can win tonight and friday's game so they can be well rested for the next series. the much needed rest seems to have helped out for these games so far!!

besides lovin the bay area sports, not too much else is new with me. i freakin finally read the da vinci code. it's frustrating to some extent because the author takes a lot of things for granted, and likes to twist certain aspects of history and christianity. also, three times in his book, he talks about how an apple is what eve ate in the garden of eden. IT'S A FRUIT, you dummy. do your research. he's all excited about misconceptions by the church, and here we go with another assumption. anyway, that aside, i'm happy i read it in time for the movie release. i for some reason have been excited to see that for some time. but i'm not sure i pictured tom hanks as langdon. oh well.

my daddy's birthday was last night and he bought himself a cool leather massage chair. i got to hop in it last night but couldn't stand it for too long. it totally tickles me when it massages my back!! eeeeek!! hee hee!! i'm good with a regular recliner any day.

well, that's all in my silly world. peace!!

I don’t wanna wait in vain for your love,
’cause if summer is here,
I’m still waiting there (waiting in vain, bob marley)

well happy freakin birthday to me!! i had such a fun day yesterday. possibly the best birthday evah?? oooooh yeah!!

it wasn't as relaxed as last year since i did have to go into work, but i had a great time nonetheless. my morning started with some great news regarding hockey. erik ended up getting two tickets for the second sharks game for the next round of the playoffs!! since he's super nice, he let me have one of the tickets!! i was really happy and trying not to cry happy tears and bounce at work. :) i had tried to get some, but they were seriously gone in .5 seconds. also, he told me that cheech would be throwing the first pitch at the a's game. horray!!

work was pretty good, although i spent way the eff too long on these reports. poor hilary was being very patient and reviewing everything to see where this mistake was, and for the life of us, could not figure it out. (btw, we got it all solved this morning...and i felt like a retard for not knowing a piece to the puzzle that would have saved both of us tons of time.) matt took us out to lunch and i was super happy that it was chevy's. that was my place to go back in jr high and high school for birthday dinners. i totally forgot until i saw the waiters running around with desserts for other birthday peeps and giant sombreroes.

after work, i was just rockin out to my iPod on BART and having to hold myself back when we stopped at the coliseum station. i totally wanted to hop out and buy a ticket so i could scream for cheechoo as he threw out the first pitch. but, i would be missing my special birthday dinner, and i was wearing a shirt, skirt, and flip flops. i would have frozen for sure!!

i got home and someone my mom helps tutor after school was there with some presents for me. i felt so bad because i know she must have saved up money for a while to get them for me!! eeeeeekkk!! after that, pizza was delivered and i was such a happy camper. my own little cheese pizza!! no picking off meat or other things i don't want to eat!! hahahahahah!! i had about a million calls with happy birthday songs, well wishes, cards, text messages, emails...holy cow. i fit a root-beer float in and then opened up a trillion presents.

i feel totally spoiled that i turned 26 and my parents still bought me so much!! i got some cute clothes, money (there's a first from my 'rents!!), a super fun purse, iPod/cell case, sharks playoff ticket, of course the usual williams/sonoma fun cookbook, w&s gift card...it was never ending!! erik got me a super cute shirt which reminds me of the cuppiecakes that i make; FUNFETTI!! ahhhhh, i love it!! it was then about 9, and i was dying to go to bed. teesta came over with flowers for me (omg, i love flowers on my birthday!!) and a beautiful scarf/shawl and totally fun bracelets.

i don't know how i forgot to mention this earlier, but: then, my mommy came out with a super cute rainbow ice cream cake!! AND...she put a little sharks zamboni on it that she found upstairs!! what's hilarious is that i almost brought the zamboni to work with me that day!! i picked it up, then got distracted and put it down. it has been sitting upstairs for the past 4 years, doing nothing, and it got a lot of action on my birthday!! horray for ice cream cake!!

i was the most happy knowing that i had a sharks ticket for monday, though. that totally got me through my day and made me skip on the way to the bus. i must have looked like the craziest little girl, but i know i was the happiest little girl. :)

and for your moment of zen...something that i missed out on last night. they showed it in the middle of the 4th inning on tv, and i was watching alias at the time. props to kae for finding it online for me.

and i thought i was the happiest person alive!!

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. Eleanor Roosevelt

i really love that quote and should take it to heart more often. it's so true, and once you realize it, you can change your perspective about whatever situation you're dealing with. hopefully, for the better. :)

i had such a great dinner last night. i went out to the city with teesta, kae, erik, and some of teesta's friends. we went to chapeau!, which was a really nice french bistro. we started with lots of wine and erik and i shared the prime rib. it was beyond fantastic!! they brought out a huge slab of meat, and cut it in front of everyone. hee hee!! it came with 4 sauces that were very yummy, and mashed potatoes and green beans. seriously, i'm always about mashed potatoes and green beans...which was the reason why i ordered it!! i was a very full and happy netties after such a wonderful meal. when my pants refuse to fit me this week, i'll know why...

after that, we went to some club. i did a lot of walking in sf without shoes. maybe not the greatest idea, but i had no idea we were walking across half the city or i might not have worn my silver heels. anyway, that was fun for a bit, but it was so hot inside, like the heater was turned on. there was some good music, but i was definately full of food and ready to hit the hay. i think this sort of verifies that i'm not a city girl. well, not full time at least!! i know i can go out and have a good time, but just not several times a week. i'm much more content with a bowl of popcorn and a dvd. :)

i am really pumped for the sunshine that has finally decided to make an appearance!! thank you!! hopefully the weather keeps up so next saturday when we go to the a's game for my birthday, we have a fantastic time!!

i scream, you scream, we all scream for free cone day!!

this was one of my favorite days in davis!! i never minded standing in line for free ice cream. it was always a treat to grab right before college life. if you're smart, you'd request a waffle cone (only costing you a dollar) and they'll put more free ice cream in it.

oh my goodness...what are you waiting for?? go grab some yumminess!! :)

One last kiss one only
Then I'll let you go
Hard for you I've fallen
But you can't break my fall
I'm broken don't break me
When I hit the ground

Some devil some angel
Has got me to the bones
You said always and forever
Now I believe you you baby
You said always and forever
Is such a long and lonely time

Too drunk and still drinking
It's just the way I feel
It's alright
Is what you told me
Cause what we had was so beautiful
Feel heavy like floating
At the bottom of the sea

You said always and forever
Now I believe you baby
You said always and forever
Is such a long and lonely time

Some devil is stuck inside of me
Why can't I set it free
I wish, I wish I was dead and you were grieving
Just so that you could know
Some angel is stuck inside of me
But I cannot set you free

You said always and forever
Now I believe you baby
You said always and forever
Such a long and lonely time

Stuck inside of me (some devil, dave matthews)

you would think a weekend that included a bit of sunshine, manis and pedis, and lunch with the girls would be such a refreshing and relaxing change for me. it wasn't though, it was you. and i thank you for that.

And I wonder
When I sing along with you
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when
She sang (everlong lyrics, foo fighters)

howdy kids!! so are you loving the sunshine or what?? part of me misses the rain. as you can tell from a few posts ago...hee hee!! the sun does feel wonderful and is going to be great for the flowers i planted a few months ago. time to bloom!! not a whole lot is new with me. i'm just working and totally enjoying it. i love the people i work with, what i do, and the fact that i can wear whatever i want. can i get an amen?? :)

i was looking through frozenreality.co.uk and found this cute comic. :)


and last, but certainly not least hockey news!! jonathan cheechoo has been awared the maurice "rocket" richard trophy as top goal scorer in the nhl!! holy cow!! i find it midly amusing that i post about my favorite teams and players now and again. i feel like lately, cheech has taken over my blog. :) but i am so happy for him, and i'm super stoked that he won it. i have been watching him for a few years, and it's great to see how he's grown and learned so much in a short amount of time considering there was no season last year.

in related news, joe thornton won the art ross trophy as scoring champion. i bet i would have won that in high school for water polo since i either scored or had an assist on every goal we had. too bad nobody took stats on assists for the girls team. BOOOOOO!! hahahhaahhaha, i'm not bitter or anything. :) oh, and kiprusoff (former shark!!) got the william jennings trophy as best goaltender (fewest goals against). i kept telling everyone that sj does not want to play calgary in the playoffs!! kipp is a monster!! anyway, as you can tell, i'm an excited gal because hockey playoffs are here. WOOHOO!! now it's just time to score some tickets...

although the sharks didn't have a victory for their last regular season home game, i had a fun time!! as i was walking through the front doors with erik, we noticed a lot of guys in nice suits standing to the workers who were handing out hats for fan appreciation day. erik turned to me and said, "is that jamison??" i stood on my tippy-toes, and was so surprised to see the president and ceo of the sharkies standing there!! once we got in, i walked right towards him and he shook my hand with both of his hands. i told him that i was very impressed with what he's done with the sharks organization, and that i hope the sharks do well in the playoffs!! i think he was impressed, because not too many people around us knew who he was. hee hee. and, i had my cute sharkie-head on, so i was like sharks super fan. hahahahahahhah!!

also, i talked with erik about luc robitaille and the sharks organization possibly mentioning that it was his last game. i'm sooooo happy that they took time before the game to honor him. i'm very proud of the sharks fans who gave him a standing o, followed by "luuuuuuuuuuc" chants. :) he's an amazing player, and even though he plays for a rival team, he's not a punk, so he's respected. after the game, i was almost brought to tears when the sharks players lined up and each took a moment to shake his hand. what a classy way to end an outstanding career.

i'm a little sad the sharkies lost...especially because they didn't score any points!! there's always a lot of energy in the building for fan appreciation day, but alas, there was no gary glitter to sing along to. i was also a little disappointed that i didn't get a cheech autograph last night. he was maybe the last guy to come out of the players parking lot, and i was pretty tired at that point. i was tired from work, it being a monday, and knowing i had to wake up early the next day for more work. he finally drove out, and all these little teenagers were screaming at him. and i'm not talking about regular screaming, i'm talking about haunted house, somebody's going to kill you type of scream. the high pitched crap that makes you want to rip someone's hair out. i'm pretty sure those dorks scared him off. and, it looked like his family was with him so i'm sure he just wanted to get home and hang out. drats. maybe another day!!

well, now it's playoff time, and i'm hoping the sharks get some rest and get pumped for nashville and whoever's after that!! go sharkies!!

3 is my lucky number (like you couldn't tell from my netters hockey jersey). i always thought that hat tricks were like my special little celebration. i was wrong. cheechoo likes em more than i do.

i want the count to help us with yesterday's win!!



one goal!! aaahahahahahaha!!


two goals!! aaahhahahahahaha!!


three goals!! hat trick celebration time!! aaahahahahahaha!!


maybe 3 is his lucky number. :)

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right
Little darlin' it's been a long cold lonely winter
Little darlin' it feels like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right
Little darlin' the smiles returning to their faces
Little darlin' it seems like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Little darlin' I feel the ice is slowly meltin'
Little darlin' it seems like years since it's been clear
Here come the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right
Here come the sun, here comes the sun
It's all right, it's all right (here comes the sun, the beatles)

as most of you know, i loooove the rain!! the last few months in the bay area has had some record rain, and people are seriously freaked out about it!! i remembered like the first day i was home, it was pouring in sf, just pouring, and people were like, "omg, what do i do??" i sort of giggled and explained that i had been living in vancouver, and that i must have brought the rain with me. i sort of stopped saying it after a few days because people were getting pretty annoyed with the nonstop wetness.

all anyone ever talks about now is the rain. i get on bart, and someone turns and talks to me about how their shoes are ruined from the rain. didja think to check the weather report?? it's only been nonstop raining for the last few months, foolio. i get on a bus, and again, strangers talk to me about how they're going to build a ark like noah. there's even commercials on the radio for OSH about the rain. they're offering a sale for certain items on every day that it rains. good luck with that, OSH.

well, for all your complainers in the bay area, i want to finally quiet you. i was in vancouver for all of january and february. then, i was in the bay area in march. i want you to see how much rain i've had to deal with. and, i know the graphic says seattle, but seattle rain is also vancouver rain, so get over it. :)

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow. (goodbye my lover, james blunt)

i am soooo in love with james blunt. i could repeat this song all day.

there was the most beautiful rainbow out during the sunrise this morning!! it was great because it was raining in the distance, and the sky was purple, pink, and orange. it looked like one giant yummy bowl of rainbow sherbet!! then in the distance, there was a rainbow that looked wider than usual. it was really stretched and made me smile and not pay attention to the road as i was driving. ekkkks!!

in other news, the sharkies clinched a playoff spot!! now it's a waiting game to see who they play. i'm going to at least one more sharks game this year. we'll see if i'm lucky enough to get playoff tickets. monday's game should be fun times since it's fan appreciation day. add another "BEAT LA" towel to my collection.

and i just read an article talking about how we, as americans, need to "brace ourselves" at the thought of paying $3.00 for gas this summer. looking outside of my office, there's a chevron across the street, and it's $3.00 already. crap. i didn't brace myself for that. am i going to mutate or something??

who is the happiest shark ever?? oh yeah, this guy...



i love how his celebrations are so much fun, yet not "ha-ha, in your face!!" it's great how fans can become more excited about goals just by watching him go nuts. horray for the sharks!!

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause Ill never be with you.

Yes, she caught my eye,
As I walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful it's true
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause Ill never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel, with a smile on her face,
When she thought that I should be with you.

But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you. (you're beautiful, james blunt)

do you ever hear songs like this and wonder who the lucky girl is?? i do, and i think it's so amazing that things like this happen and the other person has no idea. how awesome it would be to be someone's muse.

i am so sick right now. i didn't even want to paint my toenails today which is like one thing that makes me so very happy. my head feels like it's on fire since i have a fever, and the rest of me is freezing. my skin hurts so much, i don't like laying down. i must be the sickest girl ever.

the only cool thing right now is that i can hear the rain outside which sounds delightful. i'll just focus on that and try to fall asleep...

Gravedigger
when you dig my grave
could you make it shallow
so that I can feel the rain (gravedigger, dave matthews)

i am so happy that the rain follwed me from vancouver. it's been lots of fun to have so many days of rain in march!! here's a lame graphic from sfgate.com letting you know how much the bay has had.