I saw it written and I saw it say
Pink moon is on its way
And none of you stand so tall
Pink moon gonna get you all
It's a pink moon
Hey, it's a pink moon (pink moon, nick drake)

it is seriously so odd for me to think that this year has come and gone already. it's weird to think that a year ago, i was starting my second day of driving with bean up to canada. little did i know that i would be denied the first time!! YIKES!!

do you ever think about where you'll be in one year?? one year ago i sure as heck didn't think i'd be back in cali. i wonder where i'll be next year and what i'll be doing.

i am glad i'm taking it easy this new year's eve, and really trying to be mellow and reflective. i feel so bad saying no to all the fun parties, but this is such a perfect day for me to be home. i really needed this weekend to catch up on sleep, and i've done a pretty good job so far.

tonight, it's movie night with a fire and a bit of bubbly to ring in the new year. i hope that wherever you are, you're having a blast.

xoxoxo!!

You've got your ball,
You've got your chain
Tied to me tight, tie me up again.
Who's got their claws
In you my friend?
Into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock,
And sweet you roll
Lost for you, I'm so lost for you

Oh, and you come crash into me
And I come into you (crash into me, dave matthews band)

i'm not 100% sure, because i cannot always remember every element of my dream, but i'm almost positive i dreamt of scary waves last night/this morning. i think i was almost being tossed out in the middle of the ocean by big, pounding waves, but i stayed calm, and after some time, it cleared and i was okay. below is what i found at a dream interpretation site.

To dream that you are caught in a tidal wave, signifies the strength of your emotions, perhaps accompanied by tears that you are holding back in your waking life.

To hear waves crashing in your dream, indicates tenderness and relaxation. It also brings about feelings of sensuality and sexuality.

To see clear, calm waves in your dream, signifies a calming of emotions. It may also signal an important decision to be made.

big sigh. horray for this year finally ending. let's start with a clean slate, eh?

Nothing on the TV that you'd want to see
And it's hardly ever snowing
The way it's meant to be
Like in White Christmas year after year
Bing Crosby, Bring Crosby
Are you listening to me?

It doesn't often snow at Christmas
The way it's meant to do (it doesn't often snow at christmas, pet shop boys)

maybe i shouldn't be wishing for natural disasters for christmas. there was a small earthquake last night that woke me up, and another one that woke me up again. okay, i was just kidding about anything bad happening!! i just wanted to be snowed in and forced to eat warm things, hee hee!! but hey, if this relieves a bit of pressure on bay area faults, i'm all for it!!

People love and people hate
People go and people wait
But, don't forget Jesus, Mary, and Joseph
Once were a family poor but rich in hope, yeah
Don't forget Jesus, Mary, and Joseph
Running from the law, King Herod had imposeth
And they were each one quite odd
And mensch, a virgin, and a God
But don't forget that what kept them aflow
Floating through the desert doesnt take a boat no
Don't forget that what kept them above
Is unconditional love (spotlight on christmas, rufus wainright)

sometimes, just sometimes, i wish it would snow like crazy here.



then i would be forced to stay inside for a few days living on soup and hot chocolate while sitting by the fire in my jammies.

is it weird to wish for a blizzard for christmas??

It's always such a lonely loom
It's sudden like a broken bone
And your luck wont always come along
So dry your tears away
Butterfly
Go ahead and fly (butterfly, dave matthews)

horray!! the family circus comic from late november is finally online, and here it is:


last weekend was totally full of fun stuff, but i seriously felt like i had no time to myself and i didn't feel fully recharged for this week!! i'm trying to lay low this weekend and relax a bit before i go on a cleaning rampage before everyone arrives for christmas. i'm hoping to be able to finish up some last minute chores and errands by this afternoon and sit by the tree with a big cup of hot chocolate, my sweats, and a book.

last saturday, michelle had her baby shower!! i can't believe how great she looks, and the cute clothes that are out now!! she's gonna be such a hot mama!! stacy threw a fun and girly tea party. it was a super adorable theme for a baby shower and it was a lot of fun. miss caitlin ruled at the clothespin game...even though i tricked her first thing. i swear i didn't mean to!! hee hee...it all evened out by the end cause she was the big winner. :)

after driving back from that, erik and i went to the sharks game. i was soooo tired from not sleeping a whole lot the night before and then going to michelle's baby shower. i kept telling erik that i was going to fall asleep...in the beginning of the second period. hee hee!! cheechoo scored two that night. i was sad he couldn't complete a hat trick, but i guess he was nervous cause i was there. totally kidding. ;)

on sunday, i was baking with the roomies!! i went to target to get some frosting and holiday cupcake wrappers. i ended up getting slightly smaller wrappers than i wanted (booooooo!!) and some holiday frosting. now i am the queen of holiday cupcakes. i buy this stuff ALL the time, and am well aware of what i need. the frosting always shows on the outside as the holiday color, but it's really white inside. for instance, the halloween holiday frosting is shown as an ugly orange/peach color on the outside, but it's really white inside!! i have the finished product, some really yummy looking halloween cuppicakes to prove it!! well, i bought the christmas frosting cause it comes with sprinkles on top, and it's light green on the outside. guess what color it actually is on the inside. yup, ugly ugly light green. i was so pissed!! hahahahahahah!!

i had a great time catching with my roomies, and it always seems like there's too much time that goes inbetween when we hang out. thank goodness we're doing dinner in the city this tuesday along with some other hot lair mamas!!

like i said, i'm trying to catch up on sleep and organize my life this weekend. i gave blood yesterday which was a bit of a fiasco. two people couldn't find my veins in EITHER arm. grrrrrrrr. the first time they went to draw blood, it hurt me so bad that tears started to form in my eyes, and it was all i could do not to start crying. that lady was jabbing and poking and ahhhhhhhh, it was so painful!! she was about to tell me it was okay to leave, and i was like, "aw hell no, we're trying the other arm. and not jabbing as much, mmmmkay??" luckily she popped the other one in. i totally got jacked up with bruises on both arms tho. i look like a junkie.

i was hoping that by donating blood, i would be able to take a really long nap yesterday. that sure as shit didn't happen!! i am like the queen of naps on the weekend, and i just couldn't get comfortable and fall asleep!! that's all right cause i did get to go out to dinner and a movie with kae yesterday. we saw "the holiday" which was a lot better than i thought it was going to be. i'm not the biggest cameron diaz fan, but she does an okay job. i was really excited with kate winslet's performance because i felt like her character was a lot like me. you'll have to see the movie to understand.

kae is the best cause she gave me a hella cute present for christmas!! i got a bunch of little candy canes, like a pound of my favorite big square marshamellows, and hot chocolate mix!! i am in heaven!! i can't wait to get a few things out of the way today and really get to enjoy that tonight. horray!!

i guess that is enough of an update for now. i love how i can use my blog to blog about what i've been up to, and a journal for what i've been feeling. it's great to not have to be emo to the world via the internet. hee hee!!

It's coming on Christmas
They're cutting down trees
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
But it don't snow here
It stays pretty green
I'm going to make a lot of money
Then I'm going to quit this crazy scene
I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I made my baby cry

He tried hard to help me
You know, he put me at ease
And he loved me so naughty
Made me weak in the knees
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I'm so hard to handle
I'm selfish and I'm sad
Now I've gone and lost the best baby
That I ever had
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh I wish I had a river
I made my baby say goodbye

It's coming on Christmas
They're cutting down trees
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
I wish I had a river
I could skate away on (river, sarah mclachlan)

i bought the christmas cd at starbucks because the ones in the previous years have been pretty fun, solid collections. i have had this song (the first song on the cd, so i haven't really listened to the others yet!!) on repeat for the past few days. it's sung in such a sad, yet calm voice and i love to attempt to sing along in my car. hee hee!! it sort of stinks because it reminds me that i have no guy to love me on christmas. oh well. maybe if i'm a good netties, it will happen next year.

this week has been super fast for me. work just flies by, and i'm having the greatest time. i'm learning a lot about my job, and trying to take on a bit to show that i'm badass. but you all know the truth. ;) giggles!! the people in my group are the coolest, and i'm so blessed to have this opportunity. on that note, i'm also a bit tired cause i worked kinda late last night getting things organized, and i'm totally pooped. i should probably hit the hay cause i feel like i have a million things i want to do. i've got to buy some presents for my mom, from my dad, clean my room, go to michelle's baby shower on sat, sharks game with erik that night, and baking with the roomies on sunday. i swear, there is no rest for the wicked.

People Envy Your Energy

You've got the drive and determination to keep your life in order, and you are on track to be a huge success. People tend to envy all you've got in life, but they don't understand the work that goes behind it!

What Do People Envy About You?

Oh, they had a little party down in Newport;
There was Harry, there was Mary, there was Grace.
Oh, they had a little party down in Newport,
And they had to carry Harry from the place. (cal drinking song)



my goodness...what a long and tiring day!! having a big game at noon seems to be too early for football for me, but i was still in berkeley cheering my bears on to victory!! it wasn't a pretty win, but still a very typical big game in that you never know what's going to happen.

i got to finally take my pic with oski!! i've wanted to do that since i was a little girl, and i was sooo happy and shy when i got the opportunity to. the funny thing is that this person in the costume now is younger than me, but i still got caught up in it being oski. i am such a nut.

the game itself was pretty fast and very crazy. i'm super happy that cal won. after, i sort of marched around with my fam who was marching alongside the band. i was not expecting to do so much walking and my pooooor feeties/ankles are killing me!! thank goodness for advil. i'm sure i'll be feeling the brunt of it tomorrow. :(

but for the most part, i had a great time running into the million lair people, enjoying the big game spirit, and enjoying my first weekend off from my new job. i will give you all a personal update on what's going on since there's a pretty strict blogging policy at work. i don't know exactly what i'm allowed to blog about, although it would probably just be all the benefits. those are what keep me happy. anyway, time to elevate mah ankles!! night!!