i really want someone to help me pick out a few cool things to get from here. i feel a bit overwhelmed and have a thousand ideas. heeeeeelp!!

MIMI
It's out again
Sorry about your friend
Would you light my candle?

ROGER
Well

MIMI
Yeah. Ow!

ROGER
Oh, the wax - it's

MIMI
Dripping! I like it - between my

ROGER
Fingers, I figured ...
Oh, well. Goodnight ...
It blew out again? (would you light my candle, RENT)

i feel so lucky to have one of the most amazing cities in the world so close to me!! i love that i can take bart to sf for the night and have a fun night on the town with my girls. i'm not sure i could ever be hardcore enough to live there like almost any lair girl i know, but it's still got a special place in my heart.

slez, abbo, robyn, and i all went to see RENT last night. HORRAY!! we started with drinks and dinner at bambuddha. wow...this is in suuuuch a sketch part of town. slez and i were lookin all cute (and almost totally matching!!) and walking up a few blocks from civic center, so of course everyone's got to ask us if we're single, how we're doing, etc. i'm so glad that we walked together; safety in numbers!! and, i had some pretty sharp heels on if anyone got a bit out of line. i keeed, i keeeed!!

drinks were just okay at bambuddha, but that's fine because we got them for free. yeah, suckas!! abbo was smart enough to find out that a few places near golden gate theatre were giving free drinks if you showed your tix. it seriously took half of the charge off of the bill. loved it!! dinner was pretty good, nothing to die for, though. the plates feed several people, so we all just ordered one thing and split everything.

after dinner, we made the trek over to the theatre. let me tell you, we probably should have gone back down to market and walked over because we were in an even weirder part of town. there's 4 young, hot mamas, and too many sketchy people coming up to us. luckily the one person that was talking and walking with us the most sort of gave up when we were walking by a police station. HORRAY!!

we got to the thearte in one piece, saw kj, met an overbearing usher, and sat down. i'm so happy that slez got the tix for us. we were about 6 rows back, and it was soooo close!! RENT of course was amazing!! i had seen it about 6 or 7 years ago in the front row, and totally enjoyed seeing the actors spit on each other as they sang. hee hee!! we were close enough this time to enjoy that and see their sweat. it was hard not to sing to all the songs and do a little dance for my favorite. i hate just sitting straight in my chair and not moving!! i guess i'll have to get the dvd to do a little dance party next time.

after that, it was back to bart, and back home!! i got a new cuddly blanket, and it's finally cool enough here to sleep with it, so you know i got some sweet dreams. :) today looks like a chill day for me. which i'm very VERY happy about since i'm most likely working a few crazy insane days this week. boohoo to that!! i gotta just relax today and put that as far away from my mind as i can. well, enjoy your weekends...whatever you're doing!! :)

thank god canada just got this. you don't want to be the last country without "internet." although you might want to brush up on your "emoticons." lolz.

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world? (chasing cars, snow patrol)

soooo bouncy because erik got me a blue slurpee and i'm trying to download music to update my iPod. but it's not working!! that's okay...i can still bounce, right?? hee hee!! :)

you all need to get excited...


thanks to trent for the fabulous pic.

ahhhhhh, he was at comiccon!! snakes on a muthereffin samuel!!

this movie needs to come out TODAY!!

Love, love, love, what more is there?
'Cause we need the light of love in here
Don't beat your head
Dry your eyes
Let the love in there
There're bad times
But that's okay
Just look for love in it (pig, dave matthews band)

i am such a sucker for love.

<3 <3 <3

siiiiiiiiiigh.

You been saying all the right things all night long
But I can't seem to get you over here to help take this off
Baby, can't you see?
How these clothes are fitting on me
And the heat coming from this beat
I'm about to blow
I don't think you know

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh) (buttons, pussycat dolls)

i found this commercial a few weeks ago online, but i've never seen it on tv. i must have missed it when i was in canadia-land. love love love it!! go bears!!

aaaaaand, some quizzes to share!! :)

hee hee...i'm smoooooshie!!

Gummy Bears

You may be smooshie and taste unnatural, but you're so darn cute.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

see that, ULTRA sweet and innocent!! giggles!!

You Are Root Beer

Ultra sweet and innocent, you have a subtle complexity behind your sugary front. Children love you, but so do high end snobs... when you're brewed right. Your best soda compatibility match: Dr. Pepper Stay away from: Diet Coke

What Kind of Soda Are You?

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

very true, i am a ginormous ball of energy!! watch out!!

Your Birthdate: May 3

You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper. You are always on the go, but you don't have a type a personality. Instead of channeling your energy into work, you instead go for fun and adventure. Witty and verbal, you can have an interesting conversation with anyone. Your strength: Your larger than life imagination Your weakness: You tend to be pretty scattered Your power color: Lime Your power symbol: Lightening bolt Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Ain't no other man can stand up next to you
Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do
You're the kinda guy a girl finds in a blue moon
You got soul, you got class, you got style, you're bad ass
Ain't no other man, it's true
Ain't no other man but you (ain't no other man, christina aquilera)

hee hee...honey, i'm sorry to use christina aquilera, but she just saaaang it on the radio and i thought of you. :)

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase.
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space

And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Probably (crazy, gnarls barkley)

wow, it's been effin hot in the bay these last few days. doesn't help that i've had allergies pretty bad and cramps. it makes me super cranky-pants!! and yes, only *i* may call myself that. if you do, you'll enjoy a painful death. muahahahahahah!!

so, hypothetical question, but where in the heck is my prince charming?? it's so hot here and i really want someone to take care of me. i don't care if i sound whiney, but i want someone to get me a slurpee...draw a cool bath...just do nice things for me right now. i don't complain about much, but i feel miserable and would love it if someone actually cared. grrrrrrrrrr.

We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all? (delicate, damien rice)

I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me. (philippians 4:13)
why oh why am i always forgetting this? someone tattoo it on my hand or something.

well, happy humpday to everyone participating today. i sort of wanted to do an update with me, but since i'm not sure about a few things, it's just gonna have to wait!! right now, i am super excited for this weekend. dinner at my house with the roomies on friday, and pretty much nothing else planned for saturday and sunday. i'm going to go through old photos and update a few scrapbooks and junk like that cause it makes me happy. this weekend will be one juuuuuust for me. WOOHOO!!

Don't know why Tori came by
I could see by the look in her eyes
Tori'd been driving around the town for awhile
Playing with the thought of leaving

Don't know why Tori just smiled
Mentioned something 'bout how you were right
Must have been hard to see through the tears she was hiding
She said "I might not be seeing him soon
I got a few things I've been waiting to do"

Hey, Tori came by, Tori came by tonight
Hey, Tori came by, she says to say goodbye

Looked outside at the car in the drive
And the suitcase on the backseat inside
Sure it's so, she can't look out behind at the road
She said "I might not be seein him soon
I've got a few things I've been waiting to do"

Hey, Tori came by, Tori came by tonight
Hey, Tori came by, she says to say goodbye

Don't look down, she seemed alright
You might be asking where is Tori tonight
Somewhere out on the highway
I'm sure that she's fine (victoria, john mayer)

the only thing i can find to be happy about right now is the 102 degree heat and my smoothie in hand. i don't mean to sound so dramatic, but that's about it right now.

We loved each other tenderly
Like we loved all lovers
Then when day you left me
Ever since I've been desperate
I see you everywhere in the sky
I see you everywhere on the earth
You are my joy and my sun
My nights, my days, my clear dawns

You are everywhere because you are in my heart
You are everywhere because you are my happiness
Everything that is around me
Even life does not represent you
Sometimes I dream that I am in your arms
And you speak softly in my ear
You tell me things that make me close my eyes
And I find that marvellous

Maybe one day you will return
I know that my heart waits for you
You can not forget
The past days we spent together
My eyes never stop searching for you
Listen well, my heart calls you
We can love each other again
And you'll see life would be beautiful (tu es partout, edith piaf)

because i had a free moment at work...

Your Stripper Song Is

Like a Virgin by Madonna "Like a virgin, ooh, ooh Like a virgin Feels so good inside When you hold me, and your heart beats, and you love me" No virgin-ness implied. Not at all.

What Song Should You Strip To?

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer
inside of me, threatening the life they belong to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe (breathe, anna nalick)

i love being a girl. i will always dream about beautiful things.

question of the day: what kind of girl drinks fat tire??

for some reason, people always seem to ask me if i've ever had it and proceed to tell me that it would be my perfect beer. it was definately the choice of last summer's thank yous at our staff meeting which always made me very happy. but random guys at a bar, even old friends tell me that they associate that beer with me. i do drink it occasionaly and love it, but now i wonder, what kind of girl drinks fat tire??

You've got such a pretty smile.
It's a shame the things you hide behind it.
Let em go give it up for a while...
Let em free and we will both go find it.

I know there's no where you can hide it.
I know the feeling of alone.
I know that you do not feel invited,
But come back, come back in from the cold. (i know, jude)

i totally forgot to mention that at the lair there were a few afternoon thunderstorms!! i was a bit afraid because the last time they were that loud, lightning hit like 50' away from where i was...outside!! eeeeeekkk!! i get so excited about thunder when i'm inside and safe; it's such a fun turn of events when you're outside. i don't think it was any closer than 15 miles from us, but it sure did get my heart racin!! i secretly loved it!! <3

on a slightly more serious note, please keep my friends chris and jordan in your thoughts and prayers. chris is getting a new kidney from jordan and that's happening today!! i'm so happy for chris finally getting one and for jordan for donating his!!! thanks everyone...and enjoy your friday!! :)

i love that i can see fireworks from my room. horray to the fools for shooting off illegal ones!!

although the view is nothing like this...

All through the night
I'll be watching over you
All through the night
I'll be standing over you
And through the bad dreams
I'll be right there, baby

Holding your hand,
telling you everything's gonna be all right
And when you cry
I'll be right there
Telling you you were never anything less than beautiful
So don't you worry,
I'm your Angel standing by (angel standing by, jewel)

happy 4th of july to everyone!! i hope you enjoy your day off, stuff your bellies, and enjoy some spectacular fireworks!!

all right. i wanted to do a little day by day update of the lair, but it all went by in a flash and i have no idea what happened when. so here's a little synopsis of what i remember. :)

i pulled in the blue office and it was so great to see everyone!! it felt like i hadn't left at all!! oski's party was that night, and it must have been a really hot day because i was hot in my leotard as poison ivy!! (i still can't believe i wore that to a party) usually it's a cold weekend during third week. i had such a fun time meeting rookies at the party (who knew me from previous summers....eeeek!!) and people thinking my hair was really orange. i thought it was the most obvious wig!! obvi!! but yes...had a great time!!

for the rest of the week, i slept in every day for breakfast with the exception of one day. i did take my aunt beth to the serene bean and had the world's best white mocha. i read a ton and swam a bunch in the beginning of the week and did get up to therapy once with tons of staff, and sketchy ex. it was the first time for megan and erik, and i think they totally loved it. boohoo to the gypos who were screaming and singing during the sunset. efffff you!!

i did get to see the new superman movie with the new retail team on tuesday night. it was such a great movie, and i liked how i hadn't seen any previews for it so i had no expectations. there was a great story, superb cast and no cheesy parts. i liked it so much, i saw it again on saturday!!

this was definately the week of butterflies, too!! they were everywhere!! they were flying around no matter where you were. they had little purple ones down by the gold waaaay-outfield in that extended field. i was so inspired by them that i actually painted a tile with flutter-byes on it!! it didn't come out that great, but it was sort of the theme for the week.

thursday night is when most of the sketchy-ex showed up. it was so fun to see everyone again. i love sitting in the staff area drinking and catching up with old friends. friday was gary at the berry, and i swear that doesn't usually happen third week. who knows. thanks to gary, i had several adult beverages and then saw tons more ex-staffers. i don't remember talking to people for a long time, but i did see roomie and that totally made my night!!

i'm so happy i stayed saturday night because the blue directors party was tons of fun. i wasn't sure how it would be when i had my first shot of vodka and almost booted. it was a little too ghetto and pretty much tasted like hairspray. i am the queen of vodka, too!! i guess just not with the cheap shit. anyway, i drank and danced the night away and had a fantastic time looking at the stars on the way back. :)

sunday i got to sleep in (horray!!) and hang out again with retail...hopefully not bugging them too much. i want to help out as much as i can, and i hope i wasn't too much of a burden. i rode back with caitlin, and we had the best car ride on the way down. i love that we can talk about sketchy stuff and share lair memories and just giggle together. it sounds like she's gonna have the best summer!!

so yeah, that's my very condensed and not totally detail oriented update. just a few fun memories!! :)

Nobody else here baby no one else here to blame
No one to point the finger...
It's just you and me and the rain
Nobody made you do it, no one put words in your mouth
Nobody here taking orders when love took a train heading south
It's the blind leading the blond
It's the stuff the stuff of country songs

If God will send his angels
And if God will send a sign
And if God will send his angels
Would everything be alright? (if god will send his angels, u2)

so i feel like i need to do this gi-normous lair update but there was so much that went on that i have no idea where to begin. all i should say is that i got everything crossed off my list except for a massage. well, wait...i did get one of those and i didn't have to pay. hee hee!!

yeah...maybe i'll get back to a lovely update when i'm not totally swamped with catching up with workie-work. :)

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