waaaa waaaaaaa waaaaaaaaa

you know you need to get out more when your license plate frame reads: the only good ogre is a dead ogre.

i am so annoyed with girls who think they are geniuses but have no idea how to spell or use proper grammar. i am very guilty of being a bad speller, but i at least can see when a word is wrong and fix it. and yes i am guilty of using way the eff too many commas in a sentence, but DAMN. it's always people who call themselves smart or intelligent or some other bullshit word. i GUESS.

i don't know why i'm so bothered by this crap at this moment in time, but i guess i need to just get it out. if you have to write about how smart you think you are, i'm just going to laugh. hehehehehehehehe!!

on another note, i am so very happy to be working at teh google right now. i have about a million cool things i want to say, but i sort of don't want to share them here. if i love you, i'll let you know about the awesome shit that you haven't heard of until now. ha-HA!!

I really can't stay
(but baby it's cold outside)
I've got to go 'way
(but baby it's cold outside)
This evening has been so very nice
(I'll hold your hands there just like ice)

My Mother will start to worry!
(beautiful what's your hurry?)
And Father will be pacing the floor
(listen to that fireplace roar)
So really I'd better scurry!
(beautiful please don't hurry)
Well maybe just a half a drink more
(puts some records on while I pour)

The neighbors might think
(baby it's bad out there)
Say, what's in this drink?
(no cabs to be had out there)
I wish I knew how to break the spell
(your eyes are like starlight now)
I'll take you hat your hair looks swell (baby it's cold outside, bing crosby)

i have been a big fan of philosophy products for quite some time, and lurve adding new scents and lotions to my mix of fun girly things. i was all about amazing grace last year, and totally loving cinnamon buns this year!! it is sooo good that i pick one scent at a time or i might get a bit overwhelmed. hee hee!!



the body wash and body souffle are beyond yummy. i smell slightly of cinnamon and very sweet...kinda like frosting. i'ma eat myself up right now. lick, lick.

i hope i still smell this good when i walk into work for the first time tomorrow!! i don't even think i'm going to meet my group right away!! it's seriously like orientation and training all week. that's okay, i get to be a google gol and i could not be happier!!

You and I could quit this scene
Build a town and then secede
Like an Adam and an Eve

'Cause to the dreamers go the dreams
But the leaders have the lead
It's a frightening, frightening thing

Born to the land of opportunity
Of manifest destiny
Do you want to change your mind?
You can always change your mind. (manifest destiny, guster)

kiddies...the moment you have all been waiting for. the time has almost come...

Santa cutie, and fill my stocking with a duplex and checks,
Sign your x on the line
Santa cutie, and hurry down the chimney tonight

Come and trim my chirstmas tree,
With some decorations bought at Tiffany's
I really do believe in you,
Let's see if you believe in me

Santa baby, forgot to mention one little thing, a ring,
I don't mean on the phone,
Santa baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight (santa baby, marilyn monroe)

there are so many things that make me incredibly happy. right now, i have a bright pink thermal shirt on with comfy sweats. i loooove feeling cozy and surrounding myself with my favorite color!! there are so many little things that i try to do every day to make me super smiley and bouncey. :)

december is probably my favorite month because there are so many fun things that i don't always get to do during other months. here's a list of what i love!!

*decorating the house
anyone who does this before thanksgiving is just sick in the head!! it is such a chore to get all of the boxes and bins at my parents house down from the top of the garage. they're all dusty from sitting there for a year, but there is oh so much fun inside!! i love getting lights out, putting up wreaths i made when i was 6...just all of it!!

*lights outside
okay, so when i was 5, my daddy asked me if there was any sort of special pattern i wanted to do with the outside lights. this was waaaay back in 1985, so there was really only one set of outside lights unlike today. yeah, those hecka big bulbs. my daddy traded some with the guy across the stree who wanted all white. so we had tons of colors, but no real order. and of course since i was 5, i wanted them in rainbow order!!! my daddy is so awesome that he actually did it, and has kept it that way ever since. so it goes red, orange, yellow, green, blue, and we have one violet light!! i don't think that they made violet lights back then, but i remember putting it at the end, because it completed the rainbow!! it worked still as of last year, and i'm going to be so sad whenever it goes out!! the hilarious thing now is that friends tease me when they come over to my house and ask if it's the "gay" house cause of the rainbow. when i tell them the story, they usually say, "awwwwwww!!" can you imagine the netties at 5 with those big coke-bottle glasses, screwing in rainbow light bulbs!! i still remember it and i was soooo happy!!

*decorating the tree
this one is a no brainer. i looooove putting my ornaments on the tree. i have so many now that i could probably put all of mine on my parents 10' tree!! i am actually thinking of getting a pink tree and decorating it with my girlie ornaments since i have so many. how much fun would that be?? okay, maybe only to me. :)

*hot chocolate
i love how you can either make it all the time, or go out and get it. i love that it's available everywhere and people seem to smile as they make it. it's heaven!!

*ice skating outside
all right, so i know that most places in cali aren't cold enough to have real ice outside, but we can still make crappy ice skating rinks outside, right?? RIGHT?? although it hurts my ankles like woah, i still love to go out and skate a bit.

*full stockings
i don't even get excited about the candy, since i usually give most of it away, but i loooove the fun treats that santa always gets me!! there's always some sort of exotic candy, along with my favorites like gummy cherries or super sour stuff. and, i still get excited when i see tangerines!! i love the fun treats like new nail polish colors or tons of mac makeup. my santa is the best!!

*fires
all right, so they're not so good for the enviornment which means we can only do them a few times a year at my house, but i love them so very much!! i love how warm and cozy the rooms feels, and how you don't want to leave. i love how you can take half-naps in front of them. and, i love how you can just gaze into it and feel totally at peace. which of course leads me to change into jammies or sweats right after work, and cuddle up with a blanket and a book!!

*present hunting
i seriously LOOOOVE getting presents for people. i sometimes forget that people are getting them for me because all of my energy is spent on how happy i think the person is that is going to get this cool gift!! i am sort of the personal shopper for my dad which i just love. i get to hear what she likes or i at least LISTEN to what she likes. heeheheheheh!! and, i know when she loves something...she doesn't have to say a thing. i am the worst when it comes to waiting for people to open things, though. if i had my way, i'd let everyone open things the moment i bought them!!

all right, that's it for now. here's your moment of zen:
"Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, it's at the end of your arm, as you get older, remember you have another hand: The first is to help yourself, the second is to help others." -Audrey Hepburn

here are two comics that made me giggle today!!

the first is one of my all time favorite comics, pearls before swine. it wasn't in today's paper, but back from earlier this month. i believe that stephan pastis is a cal alum. well, he has to be if he's putting this in his strip!! anyway, i wanted to share it. and it's totally "stolen" from comics.com. ;)



and crapdideecrapcrap. the one today from family circus was a giggle-fest for me. i can't seem to find a link anywhere with a current comic so you'll just have to wait, or check your local papers. grrrrrr. it was funny cause of tomorrow being thanksgiving and had to do with where i'll be starting my new job on monday. horray!!

ah yes, it's that time of the year!! thanksgiving is almost upon us and it's red cup time at starbucks!! WOOHOO!! i honestly can't remember when this tradition at starbucks started. i don't know if it's semi-recent or something that's always happened as long as there's been a starbucks in fremont. i do remember being so excited when there was one within driving distance from irv-town. horray for an open campus!! but really...it's one of those things that now triggers my brain that it's getting close to one of my favorite months of the year. i loooooove december and christmas!!

yesterday was a fun adventure out to sf to check out the new shopping center and bloomies. my ankles are juuuuust killing me, though!! we did a ton of walking and that combined with the slight cool/damp mornings is not making my feet too happy!! i'm glad i had a chance to be a bit of a bum today. :) i was very productive, but i tried not to do too much walking.

i did go out to safeway for a bit, and i swear, i still think i'm in van when i walk in. it's soooo spooky how all the stores look the same now. everything's in the same place which is great for shoppers!! i just feel odd like i've somehow teleported myself from cali to canada. i'll get over it soon, i swear!!

tomorrow is thanksgiving, and i'm excited to get together with part of my family for the day. thanksgiving means a bit more to me than the average person (imho) because on my dad's side, i'm related to myles standish. he was the captain of the mayflower, yo!! i always try to set aside a bit of time to think about what it might have been like to come over to america and start over. thanksgiving is such a perfect time to reflect about that and (obviously!!) what you are thankful for. i just love traditions, and can't wait for tomorrow. happy turkey day!!

polar bear butts are soooo cute.



i get to go shopping in sf today with my mom and granny and i'm sooo excited!! we used to go to the city with my bro and check out all of the holiday stuff when we were little. it's going to be so fun to do it now that i'm all grown up. sort of. bloomies, here i come!! :)

i am sooo tired and worn out, but i must get a quick post in today!! tomorrow is my last day of work at ccc, and then i'm off to mountain view!! horray!! i've been training someone for the last few days which has been fantastic because i feel very confident in this woman who's taking over for me. on the same note, i am usually swamped with work and put in lots of extra hours on normal weeks; you can imagine how it has been piling up these last few!! that, and the fact that i'm bloated and cranky sort of helps to explain why this post sucks so bad already.

all i want to do is mention that my blog is four years old today!! yippee!! happy birthday to mah blooooog!! :) i can't believe i've kept this going for that long. i actually didn't want to start one because i thought i was getting in a little late in the game. for me, it's fun to post updates, weird stories in the news, pictures, etc. it sure as heck entertains me!!

horray for being four!!

I saw it written and I saw it say
Pink moon is on its way
And none of you stand so tall
Pink moon gonna get you all
It's a pink moon
It's a pink, pink, pink, pink, pink moon. (pink moon, nick drake)

horray for me...i got a new job!! :) it took about 3 months of meeting with 3 different groups to interview. yes, i learned a bit of patience through this whole process!! i wanted to post this back when i learned that i had the job and given my two weeks notice, but my current employer didn't want anyone else to know. he tried to keep me there by matching my new salary, but since i will be getting so many benefits with this new job, he needed to have gone a lot higher. also, at this point, a 38% raise just shows how much i should have been worth SEVERAL MONTHS AGO. that's a bit frustrating.

i only have one more week working at my current job, and then i start my new one!! i'm so happy!! and i don't want to exactly come out and say where i'm working, but if you see the post below, there's a pretty cute graphic. yeah, i get to work there!!!

i'm so ready to work for a company like this where i can prace around and be little miss sunshine all day. i've always wanted to work for a place like this where i give so much, and they give a lot back. it's going to feel a little weird at first, but i'm sure i'll get over it.

i did a bit of shopping yesterday to sort of update my look, and i had so much fun!! probably only because i went super early and there weren't a lot of people at the mall yet. i really dispise shopping when there are a lot of other people around. everyone seems to get incredibly impatient, rude, and smelly. you can see why i hate shopping in december!!

but yes, i got a few pairs of jeans for $30 at a+f. i was super excited because those puppies are usually pretty expensive. i also found a few pairs of cute and not cheap looking work pants at old navy. they look almost exactly like some i found at guess, but they're $70 cheaper. oh, and i have to tell you about how my mom taught me to shop. so say we're just "saved" $70 by buying pants at another store. that's $70 extra bucks you have to spend!! woohoo!! i got a couple of skirts, super cute tops, and jewelry. such a successful day!! :)

today is going to be pretty chill for me. i'm going to continue making the manual for my current job. that way, if they haven't hired anyone by the time i have to go, they can go inside, and do it themselves!! no excuses!! also, i want to do a bit of reading at some point so i can put my ankles up. i swear, they hate the "cold" weather. i know it's not that cold outside, but they get pretty painful when it dips below 60. yikes. i don't want to ice them, because then it makes my whole body cold. hence the reading...taking my mind off of it for a bit seems to help. horray for distractions!!

happy halloween!!

check out google...pretty in halloween decorations as usual.



i hope everyone can enjoy tonight, even though it's hard to party in the middle of the week. i'm excited to do the usual hanging out, dressing up (as rainbow brite!!), and answering the door for the cute trick or treaters. i made halloween cuppicakes last night (some have chocolate cat peeps and some have ghostie peeps in the top!!) and have the simpsons halloween dvds ready to go for tonight.

and, for your moment of zen, please enjoy this adorable drawing from one of my favorite artists!! zooooommmmbeeeeeehhhhzzzzz!!



this ghoul is GOL. hee hee!!

"Because we do not know when we will die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustable well. Yet everything happens a certain number of times, and a very small number, really. How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, some afternoon that is so deeply a part of your being that you can't even concieve of your life without it? Perhaps four or five times more. Perhaps not even that. How many times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps twenty. And yet it all seems limitless." - Brandon Lee during his final interview

all right kiddies, it's time for a little trip down memory lane. as a few of you might know, the crow is one of my top 10 favorite movies. i remember knowing it was coming out, and i couldn't wait for a comic book to come to screen before my eyes. that, and the whole hoopla about brandon lee passing away while making it. i actually remember taking my dad to see it for father's day at the super saver theatre in freakmont. i just haaaaad to see it one more time on the big screen. random!! it's such a great mix of darkness which i think the original story has, and sarcastic one liners like any good comic book.

every devil's night, i watch it. it's pretty cool to only watch it once a year, and on the day the movie takes place. i just finished this years viewing and made it through without any tears. i usually get chocked up at the end when he and shelly are together again. le sigh.

i think the first halloween after the movie came out, i decided to be eric draven. i was like 13 or 14 and so pumped. i remember i was walking down one street when i saw another guy dressed up like the crow walk past me. he was an adult, and dressed EXACTLY like the movie. he did a cute bow to me, and walked away. i always thought it might have been brandon lee.

in preparation for today, i listened to the soundtrack on my way to and from work. that might be the first soundtrack i ever purchased, come to think of it. it's so tight with the cure, henry rollins, and rage against the machine. only about half of the songs are good, but it's a great listen. :)

i think this movie sort of helped grow the idea in my crazy head that no matter what, true love will prevail. hold your special someone close tonight and don't ever give up a chance to tell them how much they mean to you. xoxoxo.

Yesterday
Love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe in yesterday (yesterday, the beatles)

hee hee, so i forgot to mention my funny story from friday. i wore my super cool CANADA track jacket to work because i am that awesome. i guess it looks like i'm officially canadian or something an olympian would wear because someone asked me about it. this guy walking next to me said, "what team are you on?" why oh why did i allow myself to reply, but i told him, "the cuddling team." he nodded and kept on walking, maybe thinking i said curling.

wow, why do i say such random things?? so yeah, i'm officially on the canadian cuddling team. cause, you know, it's cold in canadia-land. what else are you going to do up there?? :)

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
or a beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
it may be empty
or weightless and maybe
we'll find some peace tonight

You're in the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here (angel, sarah mclachlan)

when i was about 13, i thought i saw an angel in a cemetery. i remember i only saw her for a moment. i did a double take when my brain registered what i saw. when i turned around, she was gone. she was totally white, and in this same position.



i still wonder if she were real. and what would be so sad that would cause her to cry like that. i thought that she should be happy because that person is now in heaven with her.

Couldn't take the blame.
Sick with shame.
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.
Selfishly hated,
No wonder you're jaded.
You can't play the victim this time,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

You never call me when you're sober. (call me when you're sober, evanescence)

i keep hearing this song on the radio, and thank goodness not in a bad way. the more i hear it, the more i sing it and just plain rock out. i finally google'd the band and found out amy lee is younger than me!! holy shit...i thought she was like 29 or 30. their stock just went up a little higher in my book.

i love how he's looking into her eyes and holding her. this is so breathtaking!!



oh yeah, it's a painting from a brothel in pompeii.

You've got your ball,
You've got your chain
Tied to me tight, tie me up again.
Who's got their claws
In you my friend?
Into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock,
And sweet you roll
Lost for you, I'm so lost for you

Oh, and you come crash into me (crash into me, dave matthews band)

soooooo, speaking of crashes, i almost got into a huge one driving home today. there was a ton of traffic on 880, as there always is, and we were finally speeding up a bit. the car in front of me was going about 50, and i started doing that as well. all of a sudden, they slammed on their brakes, but veered off into the two right lanes because they were going to hit the car in front of them. all i see is that car going nuts, and all of a sudden a car in front of me!! i'm totally gonna hit it, so i slam on my brakes as fast as i can. um, can we say thank goodness that i just got my brakes fixed this weekend?? i was so grumpy about paying for things for my car, but now i see why i should be happy.

oh yes, so i'm about to hit the car in front of me when my car starts pulling to the right a bit. i'm trying not to go into the next lane, but i'm somehow forced to. in doing so, i miss the car in front of me, but now i'm in a new lane and i don't know if i'm going to hit anyone there!! it's the carpool lane, and not too many cars had driven by in a while. luckily the guy in the carpool lane had tons of room on the shoulder, and pulled over there as i sort of merged into that lane. i was pretty amazed that nobody else got hit in front or behind me. which makes me wonder...would i have been at fault for hitting that car even though the car in front of me jacked me up?? i wasn't too close to them, but them slamming on their brakes and going into two other lanes of traffic sure means they weren't paying attention. wow, i'm so thankful that nobody was hit or hurt, and especially for the driver in the carpool lane who saw what was going on. i owe you a beer, buddy!! :)

i'm not sure i have the words to describe how cute this is. i think there should be unicorns prancing around on clouds as hearts float through the air or something.

Here comes the sun,
here comes the sun,
and I say it's all right (here comes the sun, george harrison)

it is another beautiful and sunny day in the bay area today. no doubt that this is the most amazing place in the world to live.

i love that i have another weekend of enjoying the pool and soaking up some rays, yet still enjoying crisp fall weather soon.

i hope to enjoy this day by reading, swimming, reading, painting my toenails, reading, and going for a walk. i love my life, and so happy i can enjoy a whole day to myself.

kerokerokeroppi!! (translation: ribbit!!)



those are adowable.

goodnight.